You looked forward to being a mother
But your road was a difficult one
Your days turned dark and cloudy
As you struggled to find the sun

There was no book of instructions
So much was expected of you
You had to be your own teacher
No one could tell you what to do

You suffered alone in silence
So was the depth of your despair
You believed you were a failure
Far into space you would stare

You cried out in the darkness
But there was no one who could hear
You carried the weight of the world
Such a burden was your fear

All alone you fought your demons
You world was in trouble and strife
But who could possibly have known
That you would take your own life?

* * *

This was based on a true story
about a young mother who found
the pressures of motherhood too
great and suffered from post natal
depression.Despite the efforts
of her husband to get the help she
needed, she killed herself and her
two young children.

Depression is a very real illness
and unfortunately the attitude of
many is that the sufferer should
just "get over it" but it is not
that simple.We need a better
understanding and more compassion
should be shown towards those who
suffer before they take their
life into their own hands.

I am in motion
I am blue
Love is an ocean
I'm anchored in you
- Shawn Mullins

My perspective of me is different,
As I look out from within,
Than that of others on the outside,
Trying to look in.     ©spirit

Betty Lou Hebert