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Removing the Curse
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Removing the Curse |
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green_itchy_stuff Senior Member
since 2003-06-26
Posts 1929New Caney, Tx |
This is my first one like this so tell me what you think please. ------------- Oh Lord how do I serve you with my heart instead of my feeble brain? How do I get out of this rut to give you my entire life? Its almost impossible for me to even try to be a good servant. I'm in my earthly father's house and spiritually I might as well be at the bottom of an endless dungeon under the mightiest castle where even slaves would get away peacefully and honorably for beatting and mocking me. Please don't be angry at me, except that's what I deserve. What is wrong with my faith? And why do my eyes wander? Is it pride? The longer I'm here the more I sin. I know its a little bit of lust, gluttony, sloth, and foolishness. I feel seperated from you though I know you're here. Why did I just collaspe on myself? Why do I let faithless people drain me? And then I betray you again. I don't know what to say. I'm beyond sorry. I have the eyes and heart of a beggar. I just want to give my entire being to you. I want every ounce of my soul to serve you, please How do I blot out the host of demons that run through my heart and mind, which lead the way for me to defile myself again and again I love you Lord and I'm sorry because of failling you so often and ever and ever. I pray I can be a stronger and more faithful servant. Praise you Lord. No turning back, this time, no walking away -Kutless |
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Local Parasite
since 2001-11-05
Posts 2527Transylconia, Winnipeg |
Do you have a bible? You might want to read the book of Ecclesiastes. Those questions seem very similar to yours and they're brought to what I consider a satisfying conclusion. The struggle you describe reminds me of something I've been reading, actually. There's a part in the first book of The Faerie Queene where St. George comes to grips with the demon of Despair who tempts him to suicide by saying that there's no point in living, and that his life on earth only causes more sin and evil to be done by his hand. Una, the lady at his side who represents truth, keeps him from slaying himself by directing his attention to the noble goal for which he has set out. It is holier to continue in your struggle than to quit. There will be sin along the way, but what is of more dire significance is the good to which you aspire. Live your life in gratitude. Anyways, that's just a response to the subject matter. Thanks for sharing with us all.  Brian "God becomes as we are that we may be as he is." ~William Blake |
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green_itchy_stuff Senior Member
since 2003-06-26
Posts 1929New Caney, Tx |
Wasn't Ecclesiastes written by Soloman? And doesn't it pretty much talk about everything is pointless and there is never the perfect time for anything. And encourage us to just live for Christ to the best of our ability. See I haev a call on my life and the other day I was out in process of the beginning of meeting that call. When I met a man who I believe had a bit too much pride from being a former marine and let him talk me out of doing what I was doing. If I had left I wouldn't have committed today's sins and I'd be quite a ways a way from here. I guess I have something I still need to do here before I get on my way again. I guess I just felt guilty about sinning like I did today. Thanx -GIS No turning back, this time, no walking away -Kutless |
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littlewing Member Rara Avis
since 2003-03-02
Posts 9655New York |
Craig? you answered your own questions right here: Why did I just collapse on myself? Why do I let faithless people drain me? If you do not have a bible. some Kahlil Gibran will do until . . . http://www.columbia.edu/~gm84/gibtable.html *smile* |
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mysticpoe Senior Member
since 2003-02-28
Posts 883 |
They say when you think your insane, you can't be. Because insanity knows only the insane. When you think your distant from God, you can't be. Because just thinking of God, negatively or positively. Is still knowing God just the same. God brought you in as a child, and in God's view. You will always be a child. Forever learning, adjusting, falting and rising. If you want to find your true self again. Go back and think, as when you thought as a child..and you will rediscover all those aspirations and passions you felt. Before life's manipulating twists came into view. We all started with purity, as in a blank sheet of white paper. We can always start again with a new sheet..and all of us have. Enjoyed your write here. The best. wayne If nothing is something |
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green_itchy_stuff Senior Member
since 2003-06-26
Posts 1929New Caney, Tx |
Thats true. God is so awesome. I used to be a witch and about 7-8 months ago I got saved. And everytime I go to church my pastor talks about everything that comes into my mind through the week. Its because he prays 2 hours everytime before he goes up to preach and as a result I read the Bible everyday, God has trusted me to reach about 20 lost people, I pray alot as well. Its crazy. There's a certain position to pray in and just being in that position is a form of worship. God has brought me through so much and he has so much more for me. Actually when I wrote this I had just left my parents house to walk 20 miles just to start, a trip I was planning on walking to Philadelphia all for Jesus. And I got to my dad's house and I just started to crash. Yeah so I felt pretty worthless and sorry. Thanx for explaining the way you did. It makes me feel better. God bless. -GIS Everything is beautiful in it's own time |
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Joyce Johnson
since 2001-03-10
Posts 9912Washington State |
No matter how many times you fall, God will pick you up if you ask. How could we walk with a better companion than that? And I must add that I don't believe there is a certain position to pray. Even though you are flat on your back and cannot move, you can pray and you will be heard. Love, Joyce |
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green_itchy_stuff Senior Member
since 2003-06-26
Posts 1929New Caney, Tx |
Thats true, it doesn't matter how you pray, but I've heard men of God talking about this position is a form of worship in its self. And I'm willing to believe they're right. The position is you get on your knees, put your hands together and stick them in between your legs and then lean forward and put your head between your knees right about the outer part of your eyesockets. The reason I would believe this position to be a form of worship is because in that position you're as volunerable and it gets. If something was to walk up and try to mess with you or hurt or kill you, you would never see it coming. I love God so much and its really nice to have a place where I can tell people and tell them why. Thank you whoever reads this next. -Craig He has made everything beautiful in its own time. -Ecclesiastes 3:11 |
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pyre Member
since 2008-05-16
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