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Middle of the See-Saw
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Middle of the See-Saw |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion 
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Middle of the See-Saw If I were to shed these layers bring you exactly what you want – displaying naked discomfort, how my flawed self would shock and daunt. A daily dose, an orange pill reins in the stronger emotions, I am neither angry nor sad, alchemy - of sunlit potions. A smile alights on unskilled lips, a laugh may struggle up to rise - the new me doesn’t fool my son who asks why I always sigh. Those who love me, so patiently have given me this time to heal. They’re waiting for me to return, I’m missing what it is to feel. © 2002 CM Bailey [This message has been edited by Corinne (11-15-2002 05:55 PM).] |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
Stuck in the fulcrum as it were. Neither here nor there. No man's land. Bardo, the in between state. Numb. Enduring. Inert. Still. Waiting..... Hang on to the love of your family (and that little orange pill--if it is really necessary)...and you will make it. The time will come again when you will want to feel and be open to new experiences. You will get through this--and you will be stronger for it! Very moving writing. ~ sending loving hugs Linda |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssss) Oh Corinne, I know how hard it can be to be absent from your loved ones for a long time and I have been stuck in this prison before too, but I know with all my heart you all will reunite and again many special memories and moments will be shared, as they love you so much and not for one minute have they doubted you! (sigh) I send angel hugs of compassion your way, sweet friend, God Bless You, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Corinne, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Cpat Hair
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793 |
time to heal is a gift... and one I wish indeed for all. In middle ground I understand.... very nicely done |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Corrine, even though I don't understand all the reasons behind this poem, I do understand the emotions you brought forth through your words. I have also felt, in my earlier years, that I was on a "see-saw" and I tried not to allow myself to feel. I had pushed down so many emotions and kept them inside for so long, that I almost couldn't "feel" any thing. Thank God, I do feel things now. I hope you do better real soon. "Love makes the world go around" |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Corinne - I think that I can relate to how you are feeling....middle of the see saw....as I am dealing with emotional issues right now that have me sometimes "up" sometimes "down." It's not fun is it? Hang in there sweet poetess. Very well written. Chris "Hope" is the thing with feathers- |
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LngJhnAg Member Elite
since 1999-07-23
Posts 3508Boot+Kitty=Poetry in motion |
This poem deserves a response, Corinne. [This message has been edited by LngJhnAg (11-16-2002 01:58 PM).] |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
your timing is more on target than you could know ... you write the words I've not let myself... the process of healing is one that we must allow ourselves. heartfelt piece here poetess C...written with the grace and sincerity we have come to expect from your poetry. take care of you  jm No one has ever shown me how to see the world the way I see it now ... |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
"If I were to shed these layers bring you exactly what you want – displaying naked discomfort, how my flawed self would shock and daunt." Exactly. You can put my name down on that list too.  Excellent write, Corinne. |
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wayoutwalt Member Elite
since 1999-06-22
Posts 4870TEXAS (it's all big) |
teetors never prosper!!! that was lame....... cool poem yuh |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Don't fall... Hugging you for this... |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
dang woman! How do you know exactly how to put out what I feel, or what I don't feel? Great title brought me in, just figured I could relate, not disappointed. |
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LngJhnAg Member Elite
since 1999-07-23
Posts 3508Boot+Kitty=Poetry in motion |
Corinne - As promised - I didn't want you to miss it, since it was meant just for you. /pip/Forum74/HTML/002077.html |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
Corinne, A good write, a good read, enjoyed. |
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brian madden Member Elite
since 2000-05-06
Posts 4374ireland |
first of all great title, as for the poem I don't know the circumstances that inspired this piece, whether fiction or first hand experience I hope its the former, but what I do know is that this piece is full of honesty and raw emotions. "If I were to shed these layers bring you exactly what you want – displaying naked discomfort, how my flawed self would shock and daunt". This is real power poetry. I used to make phantoms I could later chase images of all that could be desired then I got tired of counting all of these blessings"h.devoto magazine |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Linda, thank you for such words of encouragement! I'm attempting more honesty in writing, but to tell you the truth, it's very scary. I was afraid it would drive people away. That it hasn't had that affect has warmed my heart and renewed my spirit. Noah, you are always so sweet and ALWAYS have a kind word, thank you! Cpat - thanks! Time can defintely be on our side, we just have to choose it to be so. Thank you, Garysgirl. Yep, it's a defense mechanism to shut down. And doctors want to make the symptons go away, so they often prescrive selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors that affect the serotonin levels in the brain to make us feel better. But, they can make us feel less, in reality. You don't cry but that also means you don't laugh as often. Thank you Chris! JM - my thoughts and prayers are with you. let yourself write it out, it really does help (even if it IS very scary!). thank you! Thank you, Midnightsun. Thanks Walt. I won't Sunshine - and thanks for the hug! Thanks Passing Shadows. I have been trying not to write this but it just sorta had to come out, I guess. Thanks, Sey! Thank you, Brian. Yep, real. But I'm on the healing side of things, so it's okay. I have felt afraid to expose these thoughts, but I decided that not writing about them would be worse - that the response has been so kind and understanding here means more to me than you know. And Michael (LngJgn) - a special thanks to you. This place has always been so special to me, so supportive and friendly. But I've never received such a wonderful gift.I'm very touched by it. Thank you so very much! You are a kind, wonderful being. Corinne |
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RMW Senior Member
since 2001-03-21
Posts 1424 |
Corinne .... Like others, I find myself wanting to speak less "to your poem" and more "to you." Remember, the see-saw is only difficult when it's attempted alone. Balance rests in the letting go to others, as you've done here. Do take care. Bob |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Corinne, the title fits your emotions so very perfectly...kinda inbetween, unsure which direction to take.. You have done well by speaking from within, and I hope that you continue to do so....It will reap many rewards for ya... Best to ya... Barry |
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Gemini Senior Member
since 1999-12-15
Posts 1203Wisconsin, USA |
I appreciate your words and know what it is to hang in the balance. Don't underestimate the love of family and friends at this time as they will probably provide you the catalyst you need to get you through. Also, keep busy, it can allow time to keep your mind active. You'll be in my thoughts. |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
Corinne... this poem touched me in so many ways... I truly understand the hanging in the balance thing... and although mine comes from a physical condition... I think it probably is quite similar... I can't even make any plans beyond a couple of weeks.... because I may not even be here to fulfill the obligation...Thank you for sharing this with us and my very best to you  ~ loving chipmunk hugsLyra |
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VAS Member Rara Avis
since 2000-11-16
Posts 7450Oregon |
What an excellent title and superb weaving of your subject. I'm glad your family is giving you the time to heal and that you're taking it. There's not much fun in the middle, but sometimes we just need to be freed of the ups and downs, for awhile, anyway. Whether on the shoal or on the shore, |
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Toerag Member Ascendant
since 1999-07-29
Posts 5622Ala bam a |
Corinne...Very good write but sad. You need to spend a weekend with Toerag yanno? You wouldn't be down in the dumps at all anymore....(You'd probably be nuttier than a fruitcake....like me).. |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Bob - you've always been a special friend. I thank you for that. Barry (now I know your name!) - I think you are right. I was very afraid to write honestly about this, afraid of what people would think of me. That the replies have been so kind here, touches me greatly. Gem - you're so right. Family and friends are what holds us together in tough times. We should tell them we love them every single day! Madame Chipmunk - my thoughts and prayers are with you. Your situation sounds serious. When I think of people in worse situations, it makes me think I'm a fool for having let things get to me. I think I should be stronger. But I also realize that sometimes we have to be weak for a while to be strong again. And that it takes strength to ask for help. Thanks, VAS! Ha, sweet Toerag, but then you might never be rid of me! Love, Corinne |
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Toerag Member Ascendant
since 1999-07-29
Posts 5622Ala bam a |
Honey, one weekend with me and you'd never want to leave....(You'd probably kill me right then so you wouldn't have to worry about me stalking you for eternity).... |
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scorpio Member Ascendant
since 2002-10-02
Posts 5178right...there |
Corinne, I'm glad you let this come out...it's good to explore and confront sometimes...this may be part of the healing process for you...and by the replies to your poem, you have a lot of friends in pip who are very supportive and caring... ...believe what your heart feels... |
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serenity blaze Member Empyrean
since 2000-02-02
Posts 27738 |
Corinne--I kept avoiding this one, I saw the title and just kept thinking--"hmmm..good place to get your finger broken!" *chuckling* now how revealing is THAT reply-- I saw this as a perfect metaphor for manic depression--but then I would, wouldn't I?  wonderful... and pssst? honesty in writing??? What a concept! Hugs you. |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Corinne I wrote a poem similar to this a short while ago called, Up the Down Ladder. I understand the feelings you wrote of and I'm so glad you were able to voice them. That is a powerful beginning.  |
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Corinne Member Ascendant
since 1999-10-28
Posts 5167state of confusion |
Thank you, all of you, for being so wonderful! Cor |
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