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Sometimes I Wish |
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SmartChick Member Rara Avis
since 2001-09-23
Posts 7081On A Journey To The Unknown 
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~ By Sue ~ I wonder what she would say If she knew how I had felt All through my growing up years There were many times When I had wished I was dead Is that the way a teenager should feel It seemed I never did anything right Or, if I happened to do something right I did not do it good enough She talks about forgetting the past But, this is something she never does Where did my forgiving heart come from This is something she does not seem to have She always tells me things I do not remember Or, things I know is not true And, the things I do remember She says did not happen at all The memories are not there for nothing When I was just a little girl I did all I could do to be loved I did not have this feeling at all I always felt I did not belong A life time of memories I have carried with me all this time If only I could erase All that I have inside my head Maybe then I could have some peace I stayed away from home As much as I possibly could Whether it was at church or at a friends At church we were taught Obey your mother and your father So this is what I always Even though I was not perfect Sometimes I wish I would just disappear Off of the face of this earth 11-7-02 |
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
such sadness in your words tonight....makes me think about being very careful with my kids...*hugs* for you  |
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MARK V SHELDON Member Elite
since 2001-06-21
Posts 3015In a corporeal internship... |
..."God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change... the Courage to change the things I can... and the Wisdom to know the difference"... -MVS "AS ABOVE SO BELOW" |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssss) Oh Sue, my heart goes out to you, sweet friend, yes, always learn fro your loved ones and rely on them unless they are abusive and you will always be accepted! (sigh) This is heartfelt, sweet friend, I send angel hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Sue, thank you for sharing! ay love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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NewEnglandlazurlu Member Rara Avis
since 2002-01-04
Posts 7470A Mountain Paradise |
Oh dear Sue, there is such sadness in the air and it so comes through in your writing. I'm sorry for all your troubles and how much I wish there was a magic wand I could wave and make it all go away. Try and cheer up. You know everyone here is continuing to pull for you. Hugs, Marti |
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catalinamoon
since 2000-06-03
Posts 9543The Shores of Alone |
Hi Sue, I have missed you too. Just haven't been myself lately. This is a strong piece, I wish parents would realize how they hurt their children, and how the hurt lasts. Sandra |
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garysgirl
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237Florida, USA |
Oh Sue, I don't know how I missed this last night. I sure do hope you're feeling better today. It sounds to me like your parents should have practiced their own preaching, and spent a little more time on helping you to feel the love and acceptance you so desperately needed. It really is sad that so many parents do this to their children.....and sometimes it is very unintentional. I wish all of us parents would stop to take a long look at ourselves while our kids are growing up. "Love makes the world go around" |
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nakdthoughts Member Laureate
since 2000-10-29
Posts 19200Between the Lines |
Sue, I don't know about your family, but I am one of 5 children and if you asked any one of us how we felt about our childhood each would say we didn't think we were as loved as another was. And yet, my parents were good parents, having to work many hours to raise us decently. Some of us were more hardheaded than others therefore the punishment was unevenly divided...and sometimes we all got punished because it was easier then to find out who actually did the wrong. What I remember is my truth, although it probably is somewhere between mine and what my parents remembered. I am fortunate though that we were never mistreated nor were we made to feel belittled. We just carried with us the normal sibling rivalry of that time... I am thankful that if any of us were in trouble, someone would come to our aid, as they have done for me. Stay strong, and let those words that hurt glide over and past you... remembering that sometimes others, including relatives, feel the need to hurt someone, to make themselves feel better...don't allow it to hurt you...and don't make excuses for them...just let it go hugss M [This message has been edited by nakdthoughts (11-08-2002 03:08 PM).] |
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