Just The Three Of Me (reposted from #16) for the Two of Me Challenge

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Mysteria

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since 2001-03-07

Posts 18328
British Columbia, Canada

0 posted 2002-11-04 04:25 PM

~* Just The Three Of Me *~

I sit here crying like a small child,
Awakened by nightmares of my past.
It feels like there are three of me,
Each one more frightened than the last.

Feeling sorry for myself as I weep.
Poor little girl who wants to hide,
So frightened of the outside world,
Spending so much time inside.

Next there's the social butterfly,
No one would ever even know,
All the sorrow and heartache,
She carries in her heart full of woe.

Lastly there’s the caring soul,
That everyone gets to see.
No one would suspect at all,
That the other two are really me.

I wonder how do you forgive yourself?
Even if you had no hand in evil's fun?
How do you gain back your dignity?
How is stolen innocence undone?

It’s futile to block out searing pain,
In shadows of darkness, it creeps in again.
Alone and cowering in residual fright,
Past abuse and fear is hard to contain.

That constant denominator written in stone,
By the hand of the devil, your fate seems so dim.
Worrying about how you'll be judged for this,
I’ve been there before; it's just wearing thin.

Heartache seems to be my constant friend,
But for my one release ~ this comforting pen.
Feelings flow like water from my mind,
I pen of loneliness in my world once again.

Strong and resilient, I’ll see it through,
Become a better woman when I finally do this.
The devil won this marker, I’m alone its true,
But he’ll never drag me down into his abyss.

I get tired of worrying, is it too late?
It gets so lonely here as I sit and wait
Wondering what will happen to me eventually,
What's going to be my ultimate fate?

I belong in Heaven, for I know I am good,
I am blameless in all this ache and pain.
I know in time I will forgive myself,
Feel confidence and self-respect again.

I'm a surviror, no one can take that away.
I look after me and I do that job well.
I put the past in the past, I live for today,
Long ago I told the Devil to go to Hell!

~* Just a little poem for the survirors*~

~*~
art by Jim Warren - http://www.jimwarren.com/

A smile costs nothing, give one away and make someone rich.

[This message has been edited by Mysteria (11-04-2002 05:09 PM).]

Kethry
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since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

1 posted 2002-11-04 04:42 PM

Mysteria,
this is two real and thrice wondrous.
Kethry

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

Sunshine

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2 posted 2002-11-04 05:42 PM

Keth said it best...

I'm sitting here, wondering what all of me will come up with to join the rest of you...

[This message has been edited by Sunshine (11-04-2002 05:48 PM).]

Earth Angel
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3 posted 2002-11-04 05:43 PM

Sharon, I'm glad you went into the PiP treasure trove and brought this one back into the light of day! This was perfect to add to the challenge.

I'm glad you weathered your storms!
Not only did you survive--you thrive!

Linda

Toerag
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4 posted 2002-11-04 05:50 PM

Great write Sybil....

Poet deVine

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5 posted 2002-11-04 07:43 PM

Sharon, we read the real you in every heartfelt poem you write.

Connel

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since 2002-11-04

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6 posted 2002-11-04 08:01 PM

Good poem.. Keep up the good work!

I wish to become a great poet some day, but it will only come in time. Til then, I shall write my poems, and wait.

regards2you
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since 2002-10-01

Posts 3940
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7 posted 2002-11-04 08:03 PM

Sharon, this is really very good.
I am so glad you posted it, too.
It is heartfelt and I understand it completely, as I know others will, too. There are many, many survivors out there, and this is medicine for their soul. Thank You

Hugs,
With Warm Regards,
Pat

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
"Desiderata"

Mistletoe Angel

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Portland, Oregon

8 posted 2002-11-04 09:02 PM

"I'm a surviror, no one can take that away.
I look after me and I do that job well.
I put the past in the past, I live for today,
Long ago I told the Devil to go to Hell!"

(big hugggsssssss) Oh Sharon, this touched my heart so deeply, sweet friend, I used to feel too just the way you did, for when I was a boy I always had terrible nightmares and was depressed and thought I was an evil person that deserved to go to hell. But now I feel like an onion I have peeled deep layers and now I believe slowly I deserve to be in heaven and deserve to be happy and love myself now! (kiss on cheek) Know you are always avery special person and deserving of true love and happiness, sweet friend, yay, you are a true angel, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Sharon, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

Mysteria

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since 2001-03-07

Posts 18328
British Columbia, Canada

9 posted 2002-11-04 11:13 PM

All I am able to say to everyone again, is thank you, just thank you for reading and understanding.

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