navwin » Archives » Open Poetry #23 » I need your advice....
Open Poetry #23
Post A Reply Post New Topic I need your advice.... Go to Previous / Newer Topic Back to Topic List Go to Next / Older Topic
Sinful_Steph
Junior Member
since 2002-10-03
Posts 35
Toronto, Ontario (Canada)

0 posted 2002-10-18 02:07 PM


He enjoys hurting me
I believe this to be true
I'm crying all the time
I don't know what to do

I try to be there for him
But none of this matters
He acts so ungrateful
My thoughts of him are scattered

From one day to the next
I don't know what to think
His attitude changes
As fast as I blink

From one minute to the next
He can be thoughtful and kind
Close my eyes and blink
And he's [edited by moderator] with my mind

He pays me no attention
To the others he is glued
It doesn't even faze him
When he sees me nude

He talks in a whisper
To make sure I don't hear
Knowing that this bothers me
Knowing I'll shed a tear

He tells me to "Be Quiet"
He doesn't want to hear my voice
He totally ignores me
He gives me no choice

Everything I tell him
Goes in one ear and out the other
He's not like this with everyone
Just me and not another

Through all this and more
I remember all the good times we did share
I can't help but to stick around
I can't help but to care

I don't understand
Why he can't let his feelings show?
Maybe he doesn't care at all?
What do you think? Please let me know...


"Love me little, Love me long, Is the burden of my song" - Robert Herrick

[This message has been edited by Sinful_Steph (10-18-2002 02:58 PM).]

© Copyright 2002 Stephanie Di Ginosa - All Rights Reserved
Cpat Hair
Deputy Moderator 1 Tour
Member Patricius
since 2001-06-05
Posts 11793

1 posted 2002-10-18 04:03 PM


can't speak to the motivation....just wonder why one would stay in such a situation that seems to be mental abuse... if it is that bad, pack you bags and get the hell out... it won't be easy but I'm telling you it beats what you describe.
garysgirl
Deputy Moderator 10 ToursDeputy Moderator 5 ToursDeputy Moderator 1 Tour
Member Laureate
since 2002-09-29
Posts 19237
Florida, USA
2 posted 2002-10-18 05:21 PM


Stephanie, you ask "What do you think?"....well, It's according to whether you wrote this poem from experience or if it's just make believe. First of all, I'd like to say that you wrote a very good poem. It's very, very sad and you portrayed a very bad state of things. If you're really experiencing this, I personally think it's a form of abuse, too....just as bad as physical abuse. The only difference is that  SOMETIMES  the scars from physical abuse go away a whole lot faster than verbal and emotional abuse. I wish you the best of luck, Stephanie, and I pray that you will find someone who loves you like you should be loved. Thanks for sharing this with us.


Love To All,
Ethel////garysgirl

Munda
Member Elite
since 1999-10-08
Posts 3544
The Hague, The Netherlands
3 posted 2002-10-18 05:40 PM


A very emotional poem. It makes me think of a caged bird who forgot how to fly. Try your wings, soar on winds and remember how to fly.
the_loner_23
Member Ascendant
since 2002-06-08
Posts 5479
Jacksonville, Florida, USA
4 posted 2002-10-18 05:54 PM


Awesome poem

Cold hands means a warm heart

Kethry
Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-29
Posts 9082
Victoria Australia
5 posted 2002-10-18 06:45 PM


Steph,
I agree with Ethel what I think depends on whether this is pure poetry or painted reality. I'm guessing from the deleted profanity that it's real and in that case it is abuse and you need to make some hard decisions. Stay and continue being abused or find a way to leave, either way it is good to keep writing until you reach a solution.
Kethry

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind.  Unknown



1slick_lady
Member Ascendant
since 2000-12-22
Posts 6088
standing on a shadow's lace
6 posted 2002-10-18 06:49 PM


it is time to go...better to be alone that not to be loved...helen
regards2you
Member Elite
since 2002-10-01
Posts 3940
California
7 posted 2002-10-18 08:49 PM


Not sure if you are talking about yourself or made this up, so I'll let everyone else Ann Landers you...

but I know this:

If it didn't faze him,
even when I'm nude,
I'd find me
another dude!

Though truly I am not much into 'dudes', anything would beat this jerk! Or, try single life awhile.

If this is you, you are writing about, get some help, there is so much available in this day and age!

Warmly,
Pat
                          

..without surrender, be on good terms with all persons..
        "Desiderata"

Larry C
Deputy Moderator 1 Tour
Member Patricius
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286
United States
8 posted 2002-10-21 03:32 AM


Steph,
I'll probably never understand the loyalty that losers can evoke. But healthy or normal it isn't. And ultimately the longer you stay the worse it gets for both of you. Your self-worth isn't in his possesion it's in yours. He simply is trying to deprive you of any. Exit stage left...post haste! Courage and peace as you deserve both.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Post A Reply Post New Topic ⇧ top of page ⇧ Go to Previous / Newer Topic Back to Topic List Go to Next / Older Topic
All times are ET (US). All dates are in Year-Month-Day format.
navwin » Archives » Open Poetry #23 » I need your advice....

Passions in Poetry | pipTalk Home Page | Main Poetry Forums | 100 Best Poems

How to Join | Member's Area / Help | Private Library | Search | Contact Us | Login
Discussion | Tech Talk | Archives | Sanctuary