Dear Sunshine, you are truly a ray of hope to me, I am looking at change and with some hope it will come, it may be no better than what I have, but if I don't try I might never know.
Pat, thanks for the reply and the edit, I did not mean to put the title in UPPER CASE, but by chance it happened, I am glad that you did reply, if it were in lower case you may have passed it by, nice to find you here on this site, hope to hear more from you
Chris, thanks for your kind words, things do become frightening when commitments are always there, but I will try.
S Arthur Grey, I think that we all come to this place and I am also afraid that most of us tend to stay there as well, I am hoping for the break away, but unsure in my heart.
Paul, thanks for your words, I often rely on my friend in faith to somehow pull me through times of doubt and stress, I hope that he once again guides the way.
Many Many thanks to you all, much enjoyed your replies.