I can't hold it in any longer.
The truth must be told,
No matter how harsh the consequences
Or how many times I kick myself
For letting it come to this.
I will forever regret getting in this deep
All because, now, I must hurt you.
Believe me, this is far from intentional.
I'm just a young girl that can't decide,
Or...has decided yet just can't go through with it.
I don't know much of anything these days...
You're on this string that I drag around
And half the timne I don't come to realize it.
I lift you, then I drop you
Until every muscle in your heart is torn.
Still, I don't seem to understand my affects
Because I'll do it again,
And again...and again...
It's a continuous pattern I can't seem to break,
Yet it kills me to see the pain in your eyes.
I want you to be a friend to me;
I want you to be more.
I need someone I can confide in;
I need your loving arms.
I'll be better off without him;
I can't see life without him.
I need your lies;
I need your honestly.
God, what the hell do I want?
I'm still so blind, as the darkness taunts me.
Why do I hold such strong faith in love?
It's bringing us to ruins;
Leaving dust to linger upon memories and dreams,
Never to be given their rightful chance.
Your spirit lightens my heart when the sky is gray,
For you leave me in a state of tranquility.
Your smile brings me laughter when I want to cry.
Your eyes look into me like no others ever have,
And probably never will again.
An opportunity like this isn't given to just anyone
But, if possible, I'd like to take a raincheck.
For, if it was truly meant to be for us,
And I begin to see through clearer eyes,
Fate will bring us together in the end.
Even though, right now, we can't be lovers,
I could still really use a friend...*
~I wrote this a while ago...I kinda just came across it today and thought I should post it. Enjoy!
[This message has been edited by BabieDoll (09-19-2003 08:10 PM).]