Losing my control
My world quietly becomes dizzy
Everyone thinks it’s okay
Everyone thinks I can handle it
When all I need is a helping hand to reach out for me
A hug is all I ask for
Someone to talk to
But yet, everyone thinks I’m fine
I’m too strong for those things
Tears that are falling from my face aren’t mine
They are someone else’s tears
They belong to a stranger
Because someone like me can’t shed tears
I can’t pretend to be strong anymore
I try to stop my world from getting out of control
Only to pause it for a while
But the process beings again
The madness starts again
When can I breakdown?
Taking a break from being strong?
When can I be a little girl again?
When my world is falling apart
I always seem to become stronger
Facing the world with a strong grip
Making it whole again
Something I can’t do anymore
My grip is becoming weaker
I have become vulnerable
Suddenly I face the world
With tears streaming from my eyes
These tears are mine, I yell
I can’t be strong anymore
I can’t fight this any longer
And wiping these tears from my face
I look down
And quietly walk away
I can’t be strong anymore