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laurie
Member

since 2003-05-28

Posts 153
canada, ontario

0 posted 2003-06-02 12:40 PM

Silent pain screams inside my head;
the need to get it out is great,
difficult to resist,
yet l cannot hurt you.
You are my love, my hope;
you are the cause of my pain.
Without you l am numb,
yet l wish l'd never met you.
You are the solution to my torment,
but the trust we once had is gone.
My soul is gone,
slowly withering away.
Do l stay, here with you?
Or do l leave,
and go through my days numb,
less than whole?
For it seems that l am meaningless
without you;
your presence completes me.
l sit alone in the bedroom,
silent pain raging inside me.
You did it again,
hurt me one too many times;
must l leave to survive?
My heart breaks inside,
yet must l be strong;
death is not an option.
To stay, here with you, is suicide.
l will not die. l am strong.
l am a fighter. l will survive.
Through the bleakness of life
l will live on, surviving.
What you have done to me
cannot be fixed, yet l thank you;
you taught me to survive
through the worst life can offer.
l will survive.

l don't actually know what this is about,
though it's really about me -- what l mean
is this: there isn't really one thing thats killing me, or one person... more like the whole world soemtimes... hehe, just wanted to make that clear so l didn't get people confused...
basically, the pain is real; the events arent.
btw: its one of the first peices l've written,
about four months ago...
laurie.

spritrider87
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since 2003-05-31

Posts 294
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