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IcyFlamez89
Member

since 2003-02-14

Posts 292
Jersey City NJ

0 posted 2003-02-19 04:24 PM

I live a life of constant want,
And expectations keep rising,
Farther and farther, past the limits of my drained being.
And still they set it higher.

My paths are already decided,
The choices are never mine.
Forced to follow orders,
Free will is such a lie.

I am caged by the standards of society
And the expecations of everyone around.
But I made them proud of me,
Though I have let myself down.

I am never allowed to satisfy
The desires of my soul.
Instead I must walk the road
That was made for me.

Just once I'd like to make a choice,
To show this life is truly mine.
To just travel a different way,
Would be my spirit's bliss.

A life without expectations,
Is what I've yearned for so long.
Just being plain and simple
Is perfection in its highest.

Oh what foolish, foolish dreams I have:
To wish for independence and free will.
To hope to attain such paradise is so insane,
I must be losing my mind.

So back to reality,
And all its wants of me.
Back to expectations and forced decisions,
Back to my wretched life.

...

Emotions and Philosophy, my source of Inspiration

Waterbirdfly
Junior Member

since 2003-02-16

Posts 32
China

1 posted 2003-02-19 10:19 PM

Don't sad.Do what you want.

IcyFlamez89
Member

since 2003-02-14

Posts 292
Jersey City NJ

2 posted 2003-02-21 08:18 PM

U make it sound so simple, that I can just go out and excricate myself from my problems. It may be easy for you if you have been given a more liberal life, but I got myself into a pretty nice tangle. There are parents you let their child do nothing, and there are those that ket them do everything. Mine, they're pretty close to the first one. I dont know, maybe it is that simple to just go and do it, but it's hard to for me, being supressed and isolated. High academic achievement was always forced on me, nothing else came before it (except religion, so pretty much my youth has been being locked into a room of books. And I'm not used to speaking up to my elders. I'm taught to be submissive, and I lack many strong traits. If I wasn't, I would have ran away from home a LONG time ago.

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