I Wish I Hadn't Gotten Drunk(more about rape)

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Susie
Junior Member

since 2002-12-19

Posts 36
Illinois

0 posted 2003-01-07 08:47 AM

I wish I hadn't gotten drunk that night,
Maybe then I wouldn't have gotten raped.
But I shouldn't blame myself,
Because I know it wasn't my fault.
But even though it wasn't,
I still wish I hadn't gotten drunk that night,
So that I could at least remember what happened.
The only evidence is the tape that I'm too scared to see.
I wish I hadn't gotten drunk that night,
So that when people try to talk to me about it,
I don't feel bad because I don't remember anything.
I wish I hadn't gotten drunk that night,
So that I could remember them putting a pillow over my face in an attempt to kill me.
I wish I hadn't gotten drunk that night,
So that I could know how close I got to dying.
Maybe then I'd cherish my life more.
But wishing is all I can do now.
And what's wishing good for?
A wish isn't going to turn back time.
If I hadn't gotten drunk,
Maybe then I'd be wishing I hadn't gotten in the car with them,
Either way I'd still find a reason for it being my fault,
Even though I know it wasn't.
Even though I could have avoided it,
I had no clue what was coming.
So the only thing I can wish for now is that nobody else goes through what I went through on September 3rd and my life after.

PrincessNets
Member

since 2002-10-30

Posts 103
NewYork, USA

1 posted 2003-01-07 09:31 AM

Wow, I am so sorry about what happened to you. This poem is so sad. Thanks for sharing!

-Jeanette-

Knight of Arendia
New Member

since 2003-01-07

Posts 3

2 posted 2003-01-07 10:27 AM

Very powerful, very sad.

Taurus42285
New Member

since 2002-12-19

Posts 7

3 posted 2003-01-07 10:30 AM

i m sorry that happened to u. its a shame we have crazy people like that to take advantage of intoxicated people. i hope u stopped drinking after that

PoeTik JusTice
Member

since 2003-01-05

Posts 186
California, USA

4 posted 2003-01-07 01:05 PM

Wow,that is sooo sad.

Reminds me of a friend....alcohol is a dangerous thing. Stay safe!

XoXo Love Alwayz XoXo
*~Serena~*
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love, and be loved in return." --Moulin Rouge

ShadyMakaveli
Member

since 2002-08-21

Posts 128

5 posted 2003-01-07 03:25 PM

Like the others i'm very sorry this happened to you, it's not something anyone should have to go through, regardless of all the negatives that have happened from it, look at some of the positives and spread your message, maybe u'll prevent another person from this happening to them. But good write nonetheless.

Android 17

Senior Member

since 2001-07-21

Posts 664
Winnipeg

6 posted 2003-01-08 02:48 AM

Wow. I'm not quite sure what to say...except, this one's really hit home for me. Unfortunatley, I can relate to such a travesty. E-mail me at "kasai_dc@hotmail.com" if you want to talk, okay?

This...wow---my heart ached, and I almost stopped myself from reading this. Good job...very good...

rOxXbabY391
Member

since 2002-12-14

Posts 71

7 posted 2003-01-08 04:42 PM

WoW that was one of the most memerable writes ive eva read. that was really great and youre RIGHT it was in NO POSSIBLE way your fault at all. There was no logical way you could have truely avoided this from happening. I'm so sry this had to happen to you :-(
Good job
~*~eMiLy~*~

"I don't think I can make it through one more night. 'Cause how do you answer "What's wrong?" ~ when nothing is right."

rimmie
Junior Member

since 2002-08-09

Posts 45
Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada

8 posted 2003-01-08 09:12 PM

Ummm...all I can say is wow! This poem has left me in total complete awe! Unfortunatly I can relate this to my life first hand...but everything worked out for me and I hope youll be fine too. Ummm if u have MSN please add me (wuzzie_ruzzie@hotmail.com).

~RuZ~

jennilynn
Junior Member

since 2002-11-11

Posts 29
here with me

9 posted 2003-01-08 11:02 PM

oh my god. pretty much the same thing happened to me only i remember most of it, and the guy didn't try to kill me.

it happened to me on september 2, kinda freaky...if you ever want to talk email me at pyro_chick06@hotmail.com ok? ttyl, jen

PoetryIsLife

Senior Member

since 2001-10-27

Posts 1763
...in my boxers...

10 posted 2003-01-09 03:48 AM

Poetry is a powerful tool to be able to cope, to surrender to feelings and feel their release. That you have this tool is a good thing, though it does nothing to truly stop the pain.

This piece is well written for it's desired effect. Please, don't stop writing, don't stop feeling, if possible, but who am I to say anything? I'm a stranger. Strangers might be able to understand pain, though.

~Titus

"A life unexamined is not worth living."
-Socrates

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