I love you
I know I shouldn't but I do
My world needs you in it
My heart longs to have your grace
You long for someone else though
And nothing has ever caused me greater pain
My mind and my heart are in a constant battle
My head says to move on
and accept that Iíve lost you
But my heart says to never lose faith or hope
and to continue to give you my love
Maybe itís a mistake
but I will continue on the off chance that itís not
I love you and it seems that
no amount of logic is going to change that
Do I waste my time with other guys
trying to get my mind off you?
Or do I waste my time
trying to get you back in my life?
Will I even succeed at either?
Or do I have to wallow in my pain for a time?
I donít know and I suppose only you can tell me
Problem is I donít know how to tell you
My heart aches for you by my side
But could I live with the fact
that you would have to
hurt someone else to make me happy?
Is it fair of me to even consider that?
You make my world bright and interesting
I canít lose you
But I doubt I can have you either
I miss the times weíve had
And there is so much I wish I could take back
Mainly my insecurities that pushed you away
I know they contributed to my loss of you
I want to fix what I have done but
But I canít do it with someone else in the way
Is she better than me?
Is that why I couldnít keep you?
I suppose I will never know
until I can figure out how to ask you
I am confused by my own emotions
I know that I could get hurt by loving you
but it hurts too much to give you up
That I feel no choice but to
hold onto the last amount of faith I can muster
I love you and no one can change that