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Allysa

Senior Member

since 1999-11-09

Posts 1952
In an upside-down garden

0 posted 2002-12-07 09:22 PM

She crosses her legs
watching as the others look at her
and the girl on the couch
grabs the remote to kill the reggae music

Another day in the basement
she's as close to the ground as she can get
as close to dying as she can get
without feeling some side effects.

She wants to hug the christmas tree
something in her mind told her
that the happiness was at the top
with the angel,
and if she could only climb up
she could grasp it in her fragile hands
and hold it for all its worth.

Unadequate and unsupervised
she lives a life alone
trapped inside her head
She won't answer the door anymore
cooks grilled cheese in the dark
and watches her hands shake as she
flips the bread, waiting for it to turn
golden brown and crisp
like her life used to be.

She's shivering and rubbing her knees
metallic skin won't warm quickly
it takes a little while sometimes.
Too bad she can't warm up her heart.
He shows up at the door
as she takes a bite of the gooey
golden brown sanctuary
and she doesn't want to answer
but she knows she has to.

She cannot cocoon herself
in rainbow colored skittles
so instead she swallows them up
handful by handful.
An antidote for the pain
in this candy coated world
she wearing suspenders
to hold her insides together
when they start to leak out.

The magic 8-ball said
that it would all end tomorrow
and now she won't let him leave.
'No I won't go to the airport with you.'
She can't bear to tell him
that she won't ever let him go.
so she asks again
and shakes her future
waiting for a different answer
to the same old question
she always asks herself.

'do you really love me?'

How is she supposed to know
she can't even tie her own shoelaces
how could she be capable of deciphering
his incoherent words mumbled
late at night
when shes attacking everything he says
with everything she's got.

It would be easier
to be punch drunk, bleary eyed
and at least a little numb
she needs some anesthesia
before the sadness sets in
she can't love him
or atleast she won't try.

It's for the better.

She crosses her legs again
the music changes again
she stops her heart again
if she lets it go for too long
she might just have to love him.

"Wie ein Quadrat in einem Kreis, eck' ich immer wieder an obwohl ich doch schon lange weiß, daß ich niemals ändern kann." ~Wizo

devinechild22
Senior Member

since 2002-08-28

Posts 571

1 posted 2002-12-07 09:28 PM

This was so awesome! I have never read any of your stuff before an the title of this one caught my eye..The writing was amazing and the imagry was great! I loved this poem! Its one of my favorites ever read here at PIP!!!!
*Allison*

Rainbowdust
Member

since 2002-12-05

Posts 320
Sydney, Australia

2 posted 2002-12-07 10:40 PM

Hi Alyssa,

The title caught my eye as well.. as does anything with the word "rainbow" in it, and I wasn't disappointed. You've got a gift for telling things like they are in a way everyone can relate to:

An antidote for the pain
in this candy coated world
she wearing suspenders
to hold her insides together
when they start to leak out.

I think those were my favourite lines.. the only thing I can suggest is that there might be more than one powerful poem there.

I'll be looking out for more of your stuff.

The soul would have no rainbows, had the eyes no tears.

Stinky Twinkie
Member

since 2002-11-26

Posts 204
Dinwiddie

3 posted 2002-12-08 12:10 PM

I almost wanted to read this but after I saw how long it was,I decided it was best not too. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure it's great, but I don't like long poems. Today was a bad day, that's why I'm being "mean" and harsh (for lack of a better term).

-Stinky Twinkie-

Stinky Twinkie
Member

since 2002-11-26

Posts 204
Dinwiddie

4 posted 2002-12-08 12:17 PM

on second thought, I went back and actually read it. I thought it would only be right if I had a reason not to like it, other than that it's long. To my amazement I couldn't find one. Watch, I'll probably pop up in a couple of days with a horribly long poem. If that happens, then you have all the chance to make fun of me and to sad "Bad' stuff about me.

-Stinky Twinkie-

foreverwithyou
Member

since 2002-10-20

Posts 204
Wonderland

5 posted 2002-12-08 10:38 AM

i also looked at the title i thought that everything in this poem was great i havnt red much of yourz but i hope to in the future (i liked the whole magic 8 ball thing lol)

CATHY

"I am who I am who I am who am I?"

Local Parasite

Member Elite

since 2001-11-05

Posts 2527
Transylconia, Winnipeg

6 posted 2002-12-08 01:54 PM

I tend not to like this sort of poem, but somehow you made me enjoy it. Maybe it was all the meaning you gave to simple things like grilled cheese sandwiches that kept my attention in your grasp as I read on.

Very nice work, Allysa.

Parasite

Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.
~Aldous Huxley

NSnaomian
Member

since 2002-07-22

Posts 232
In my troll closet I be

7 posted 2002-12-08 09:43 PM

I liked how you related the need for something..in this case sugar=P to a cure for the things gone wrong.
One of my most favorites I've read from here.
Good job!!
Laura

NSnaomian
Member

since 2002-07-22

Posts 232
In my troll closet I be

8 posted 2002-12-08 09:44 PM

Oye! need this one in me library! Good one.
I'm such a dummy!

"I have seen what a laugh can do. It can transform almost unbearable tears into something bearable, even hopeful."
-Bob Hope-

vlraynes
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-25

Posts 8229
Somewhere... out there...

9 posted 2002-12-14 12:44 PM

Allysa~
This is an incredibly well-written piece!
I will admit that I generally don't have the patience
for long poems, but this one grabbed me and wouldn't
let me stop reading until it was over.
You have some excellent lines in here as well.
For example...my favorite...

    "She wants to hug the christmas tree
    something in her mind told her
    that the happiness was at the top
    with the angel,"

I absolutely LOVE that part!
You've done such an awesome job on this piece
and your talent shines through in every word.
VERY well done!
~Vicky
"...until you have read the verse on his heart,
you have not truly met the poet.
~vlraynes

CloudedDreams
Member

since 2002-11-23

Posts 210
My Fantasy Realm

10 posted 2002-12-14 01:01 PM

I really enjoyed this poem, it tells such a sad and almost hopeless story. I almost want to cry... Good job!

Yes there will be tommorrow, but will you be there to greet it?

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