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A Grander Scheme
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A Grander Scheme |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas 
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A Grander Scheme Old entered these bones some time ago, somewhere between youth and now, between perfect eyes and bifocals, but always with you there. We matured as one, held the kids of our kids, then wrinkled and silvered… together. But now, as I sit here with your bible in my hands, the faith you helped me understand, ebbs. I see your eyes sparkling, alight with awe, as you read passage after passage, explaining each to me along the way, telling me to believe… just believe… in a grander scheme. I open the book, ruffle through the pages - the scent of you waifs in the air - and I don't see what you saw. If His love was so powerful, so wonderful, we'd be together beneath the tree where you lay, not you alone, nor just me, but We - I wouldn't be sitting here holding your book trying to understand how this grand scheme could tie us together as one, for so many years, yet leave us alone in the end. I close the book, longing for the warmth of you, yearning to believe as you, but all I see is me, sitting here holding your book… Alone. wesley james beard, jr. © septemeber 2002 Note: I wrote this based upon a visit I made to an old folks home, as we called it, way back when I was in high school. That awesome visit has touched me for 40-plus years now and has been the mother of several writing I've made. My role as Santa Claus that day, was the saddest thing I've ever done in my life - even burying some of those I love - was easier. This piece has taken years to write and stems from a direct conversation with a very tearful lady sitting on the lap of sixteen year old Santa trying to explain what she wanted for Christmas. Not sure you'll feel what I wanted it to emanate, because it really doesn't contain what I wanted, but it now satisfies that part of my soul needing to voice her anguish and is essentially her cry - Jimmy. |
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Gentle Spirit Member Patricius
since 2000-10-09
Posts 13989 |
Oh Jimmy, this made my heart cry. This is so lovely and beautiful. My friend, we can all only find that peace within ourselves. I hope that in writing this you have found some peace. Hugs to you my friend. Am here if you need me...... If I have touched one heart through my words, then I have acheived my dream... |
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Seymour Tabin Member Empyrean
since 1999-07-07
Posts 31720Tamarac Fla |
jwesley Don't know why they are passing this bye. This is an excellent write and should be read. I'll send it back to the top and hope for the best. |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
jwesley - this writing indeed came from a soft tender heart. Says a lot about the visit and what has been held inside.... BC |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Yes, dear friend...there is a grander scheme. This touched me deep inside... So well done poet sir....so well done indeed. ~Heart-hugs~ ~ Time has cast a spell on you |
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Madame Chipmunk Member Rara Avis
since 2001-12-05
Posts 8296Michigan |
I understand this only too well, Jimmy... My first husband died in May of 99, after 34 very close and wonderful years of marriage. We were as one... but fate ripped us in two. And although, I'm now happily married again, my heart still grieves for him and for those years we loved together... This touched me so very deeply... and I think you wrote it very well... Thanks for sharing it with us.  ~ lots of hugsLyra |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Jimmy, this is so heartaching, my heart goes out to you and the tears you had to fight doing this at the home, know I am always here for you if you need someone to talk this over with, God Bless You, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Jimmy, thank you for sharing! May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Jimmy, don't fret over what you have written, feeling you didn't quite hit the mark... Let us be the judges of that... For I think you have written a poem that you should take, put away and treasure it as a family keepsake to be read and read..again and again...as time passes.. |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
you made me cry.....I sometimes forget how that feels....thank you HUGSSSS YOU Lauren~ I need some distraction |
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Sunshine
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
They...say... that answers come with time... your poem speaks to the questions we riddle ourselves with, when we are at a loss over a loss... and of course, your character IS holding the answer... and held the answer... always... |
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Martie
Moderator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Jimmy Amazing to think of that 16 year old Santa and the feelings and lessons that time shared with her brought to the older you. Thank you so much for sharing it here with us. |
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Nightshade
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
This is one of the most heartfelt poems I have ever read. You are a very tender and thoughtful human being. Chris  Life is not measured by breaths you take, but by moments that take your breath away. |
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