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The Father I Never had
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The Father I Never had |
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TradingSpaces19 Member
since 2002-08-31
Posts 134Arvada, Colorado 
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I never got to say "Daddy I love you" or "Daddy come and play", I missed out all because you were too self-centered to be a dad. You always got drunk, you would beat mommy, and yell at my brothers. I heard somewhere, "Anyone can be a father but it takes someone special to be a dad". I always thought that was true, and while my friends talked about their Daddies and how great they were I always felt so left out, because of you. I always thought you and mommy would get back together so I could have a daddy but you were always to self-centered, and I came to realize that I was never going to get to have a daddy, so I moved past that fact and came to hate you. You will never be around, and you never cared So to you wherever you are I hope you are happy without us, with just your booze. *I wrote this poem because I hate my dad and what he put my mom, and my brothers, and me through and I saw him like twice in my life and the last time was in 1999, and I hope he is dead now.* |
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Bill Charles Member Patricius
since 2000-07-11
Posts 10619highways, & byways, for now |
TradingSpaces19 - you sure brought back some memories with this one. Not all apply to me, but what a trip back in time. Nice write, and I hope that you are well... BC |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Andrea, my heart goes out to you, this is terrible and I don't understand how any dad could beat someone like that! (wipes tears) God Bless You, sweet friend, my sympathies are with you and your mom and brothers, I send angel hugs your way, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Andrea, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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the_loner_23 Member Ascendant
since 2002-06-08
Posts 5479Jacksonville, Florida, USA |
Awesome write Cold hands means a warm heart |
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jwesley Member Rara Avis
since 2000-04-30
Posts 7563Spring, Texas |
Well my friend, I can certainly understand your anger...never, ever saw my dad, except in a picture, and far as I know he's still alive too. I'll be 59 in December so that's a bunch of days without one and manys the time I had an immense anger towards him. Can't say I ever missed "him", but I did miss a dad terribly sometimes, especially when observing other kids (and adults) that had and knew their dads. It did one thing to me that lasted though..it made me want to be and hope and pray I could be the best Dad that was possible for me to be...all things and circumstances considered and thats what you need to set your sights on too. Little something I wrote in relation to this discussion...hopefully it rings a bell or two with you too... Walk easy and hang in there, my friend... jwesley A Father Too Never had a dad - at least, not after conception, not one I remember anyway. I've seen so many… all my friends had them, and they were all different. Met a few I would have given the job to, had they wanted it, met some that would have seen me in the grave, before I would have called them dad. Never met one I'd have given my soul to though, don't think I ever will, because they weren't there when I opened my eyes for the first time, they weren't there when I needed their strength, and kind of support only a dad can give. They can't provide the bond, only My Dad would have felt. I've been a dad for a lot of years - I raised my kids in the only way I knew how, learning as I went, providing them with the kind of support that can only come from the heart, because I didn't know what it took to be a dad. I've paid the price of not knowing right from wrong, of not being sensitive when maybe I should have been, of not understanding relations the way I should, of not giving, no matter what I thought or felt, of trying to be something I never understood. I never had a dad, but I've been one for many years, and can only pray I was a Father too. wesley james beard, jr. © September 2001 [This message has been edited by jwesley (09-14-2002 09:49 PM).] |
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Earth Angel Member Empyrean
since 2002-08-27
Posts 40215Realms of Light |
It saddens me to see the pain you are still carrying. Hopefully, by letting all the resentment spill out in your writing, your burden will have lightened somewhat. Take Care Earth Angel |
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anya Member
since 2002-07-27
Posts 393London, UK |
I hope writing this helped get some of it out of your system,there were really powerful words here, my parents, well the less said about them the better but the way I look at it is that I will know how not to treat my kids if I have any! anya |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
Hugs...A nice expression of your feelings...James |
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~ViXeN~ Member
since 2000-01-09
Posts 93Guelph, Ont. Canada |
I feel pain for you  I hope things are well for you now. HUGS |
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TradingSpaces19 Member
since 2002-08-31
Posts 134Arvada, Colorado |
Thank you all for your kind words and sympathies. I have never like "My Father". If anyone would like to know anything feel free to email me. Thank you all again. Love, Andrea Kruckenberg |
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