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Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

0 posted 2002-08-25 10:48 PM

~My Heart Breaks Regularly~

My heart breaks regularly as I meet each season
it's pieces scattering tears, with reason
child of my spirit, firstborn son
a hole in my life, his demise so young

this child to whom I once gave birth
his body buried in soft earth
bound with twigs and roots and mud
blended red with spill of blood

beneath the earth, in lonely peace
his love, my soul will ever keep
his crooked smile and mussed up hair
a memory now, in photos shared

bright promise for a bountiful life
two precious daughters and a lovely wife
never to feel his warmth again
and so, because of our shared pain...
my heart breaks regularly
~

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

WhiteRose
Member Elite

since 2002-07-23

Posts 3208
somebody's dungeon

1 posted 2002-08-25 10:50 PM

Oh dear Lyra this brought tears to my eyes. *warm hugs*. A tribute fitting a son who was blessed with you, as I am sure you were blessed with him. My heart goes out to you sweet lady.

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

2 posted 2002-08-25 10:57 PM

(tears fall down my cheeks) God Bless You, sweet friend, it is so very thoughtful of you to love and care for his family so much as I know they too share the same tears as you! (wipes tears) I understand this pain and I wish there was so much more I could do to help, but know deep down Eric will always love all of you, and I am sure his family is so lucky to have a compassionate grandma and lifetime angel! (big hugggssssss) I am always here if you need someone to talk to you, sweet friend, God Bless You, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Lyra, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

3 posted 2002-08-25 11:03 PM

Thanks so much, Anne...
I miss him terribly.

~ hugs and tears

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

4 posted 2002-08-25 11:05 PM

Thanks so much for your compassion, Noah...
I have been crying all over these blue pages today...
They are probably all wet...

~ tearful hugs

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Gabriel Frost
Member

since 2002-08-15

Posts 216
Between midnight thoughts

5 posted 2002-08-25 11:08 PM

I'm lost for words so please forgive my muddled attempt at consolation.I'm so sad right now and though there's nothing really that can be said to warm the chill death leaves behind in the air or lighten the melancholy of a lost loved one, I have to say as in all things time heals, however slowly, and at least you know that your son loved you then, and wherever he is, loves you now.

Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

6 posted 2002-08-25 11:20 PM

Thank you so much for your kind and comforting words, Gabriel...
My son, Eric died a little over 2 years ago, at the age of 30. Today would have been his 33rd birthday and I have been crying all over these blue pages today...
They are probably soaked by now and so poor Ron will have to go and sop them up.
I had posted another poem about him, earlier today...
if you would like to see it please click on this link My Little Alien

~ hugs and tears

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

Larry C

Member Patricius

since 2001-09-10

Posts 10286
United States

7 posted 2002-08-25 11:49 PM

Lyra,
Please know that your pain is felt and partially understood. You face so many challenges in your life and you offer such a wonderful example to us all. Thank you always.

[This message has been edited by Larry C (08-25-2002 11:51 PM).]

Larry C

Member Patricius

since 2001-09-10

Posts 10286
United States

8 posted 2002-08-25 11:49 PM

Lyra,
Haven't done a birthday yet. I can only imagine how hard it is to know the celebration that could have been. Peace and courage to you dear friend.

If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

9 posted 2002-08-25 11:54 PM

Thanks so much for BOTH of your replies, Larry...
Birthdays are difficult but I have found that the actual death anniversary is even more difficult. My first husband died on May 22 of 99 and his birthday was on July 25.
Eric died on July 8, of 00 and his birthday was on Aug. 25..... so that whole 3 months between the end of May and the end of August feels like I am under some kind of curse, and it has happened every year since Eric died.

~ peace be with you Larry

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

JamesMichael
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since 1999-11-16

Posts 33336
Kapolei, Hawaii, USA

10 posted 2002-08-26 12:28 PM

Beautiful words from your memory for your son...James

Madame Chipmunk
Member Rara Avis

since 2001-12-05

Posts 8296
Michigan

11 posted 2002-08-26 12:30 PM

Thanks so much James...

~ sniffly hugs

Lyra

copyright2002 Lyra Nesius

"poetry is life distilled" Gwendolyn Brooks

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