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ULookSoPrecious
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since 2002-06-03
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0 posted 2002-06-24 06:02 AM


ISSUES

Dangling from the end of a hollowed out pen
is my love, waiting to be inhaled and exhaled by you
And 'abused by you' is a term that's found its way
into my everyday vocabularly.

Narrowed pupils and a cleaning spree
are what have taken the place of me
How good that must make me feel
It's unreal the things you've said to me

You justify it with wobbly excuses
and accuse me of being useless
if I just...can't...do...this
anymore

I'm sorry that I don't fit into
you're new tin foil coil
or maybe I'm not
or maybe I'm just mad
that I can't get you to stop
Drop the facade
of being happy when youre
just living from hit to hit
hoping to get.......HiGh

I applaud your composure
under such over-exposed exposure
when the sirens blared
and the consequences reared
thier ugly heads
I'm glad your not dead
I'm glad I don't dread a phone call
telling me you said
you'd be here
in the middle of the night
which would only cause a fight
between me and the caller
who just happens to be your father
who just happens to expect me
to be able to psychically see
where you are at all times
like he actually thinks
you're still mine

And regardless of how much you've hurt me
jerked me, around I've found
that when I see your face
misplaced, as it is
I can't help but miss
everything about you
because despite all these issues

---------I love you---------

And I can't stand to turn around
and see your hand raise up
and cup that lighter
I thought you were a fighter
but I guess I was wrong
It's been so long
since I've been right
and I just dont think I can do this
again tonight.

You underline my questions
with a stream of smoke
then conveniently forget that I even spoke
I hope, that when you come back down
come back around that you'll sound
sincere, it's been a whole long year
since I've believed you, oh but god I've wanted to.

We've weathered some rough storms together
but I'm not sure if we'll make it through this one
politely, I'll excuse myself from the conversation
so I don't have to hear about you're escapades,
daily crusades to escape from drug raids
without getting 'pinched' and I'm incensed
that you would actually try to get me to
look in your eyes just so you can lie
a little bit more so I'll let you walk out that door
with four people you've never even met
Hell yes I'm upset that you would turn
blood-shot eyes at me and plead with me
to let you take 'Just ONE more hit'

I wish I could just dismiss this, us, as a mistake
and pretend like it was all just a dream
and now I'm awake with a clean slate
and no responsibilities to you
So I wouldn't have to look in those red eyes
that so long ago were a beautiful blue
but it's something I just can't do
because even though I'm exhausted
and I've just about lost it

--------I love you---------


-Kris
Thanks for editing this.  I forgot it had that word it in.  Sorry for any inconvenience.



"Nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands." -ee cummings

[This message has been edited by ULookSoPrecious (06-24-2002 08:03 AM).]

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Sunshine
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1 posted 2002-06-24 07:31 AM



Kristen, sometimes, even though we love a person deeply, when they're doing wrong, we cannot be their springboard into an empty pool.  Sometimes, we've just got to walk away...

good write...thanks!

serenity blaze
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2 posted 2002-06-24 09:05 AM


This is a powerful poem, m'friend.

I've looked at this one from both sides, and oh yeah, the truth hurts.

bsquirrel
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3 posted 2002-06-24 04:19 PM


Eloquent, powerful poem about hatred and confusion -- and needin t' love again.

Lookin' forward to more of yr work!

These smiling eyes are just a mirror for the sun.
-RHCP

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4 posted 2002-06-24 07:37 PM




(big hugggssssssss) This is so very sad, sweet friend, I know this feeling but unfortunately life is full of sacrifices and if love continues to hurt you it helps to go on! (sigh) This is powerful, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet friend, thank you for sharing!



May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

"Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..."

Shakira

ULookSoPrecious
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since 2002-06-03
Posts 16
NC, U.S.A.
5 posted 2002-06-24 10:55 PM


Thank you all for the replies, I really appreciate them.  

"Nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands." -ee cummings

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