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The Kindest Eyes ( Revised)
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The Kindest Eyes ( Revised) |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
My life to live is a gift Living in my skin In my mind A gift from the pits of hell Needing black magic Running through my veins Not to feel the day to day Pain of a shameful existence Distasteful looks I do draw Invisible as if I were a disease Contagious when viewed The assumptions of one Uneducated or uncouth speculating, misunderstood No longer hurting For I am passive In my hopeless thoughts Of my state of affairs The brick wall behind me Belonging to the store keeper Feels comforting I zone out on the yelling Directed at me Soon they will come To be put away No longer needing to see Life so clearly Through eyes so cursed Long since given Up on speech Nothing left to say After they Took my children away Will not fight anymore For it matters not I'm a pawn in some sick game of the Gods White padded room Funny in its sick way My dark world the contrast Flopping around in here Like a dieng fish Not a sound escapes From me in my torment Nor do I hear others Sometimes seeing The kindest eyes I can't focus on Who they belong too In moments of clarity They haunt me Reminding me of humanity Being human once So long ago I almost forgot Wanting still Freedom of forgetfulness But I can hear An internal noise Familiar, my mother? A memory? "You are strong child of mine The world is full of pain My gift to you is life A gift it is If you manage it And don't let it manage you" Oh momma I have failed Were thoughts as tears streamed down my face Hopeless, helpless pain Wishing for the grim reaper Instead, those eyes The voice behind them Saying "You will heal now Those are magic tears They will not stop Until the pain is gone The healing complete" I heard my voice First time in years Saying "Thank You" Releasing Years of pain And fears Memories seem like Yesterday choosing not to forget Not now , Not ever That choice Gives freedom to view Allowing others also to View my soul The freedom to managelife Grateful and Humbling Having even one say " You have the kindest eyes" Or "Thank You" |
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the_loner_23 Member Ascendant
since 2002-06-08
Posts 5479Jacksonville, Florida, USA |
Strong poem here. I enjoyed the read. Cold hands means a warm heart |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Thank You.... ~~ Connie ~~ |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggsssssss) Oh my gosh, tears were welling up all throughout this poem to me, this is powerful and now I wish for your friends advice to always be with you and encourage you to live on with a smile! (sigh) This is heartfelt, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Connie, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Noah.... Thank You very much... It is infact part me but also a part of all the women I work with every day..... I am humbled daily by the powerful spirits I get to be a part of each and every day.... ~~ Connie ~~ |
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Alicia Member
since 2002-03-22
Posts 279 |
~Gripping. Enveloping. My goodness wow. *Peace. |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Alicia:.... Thanks very very much.... : ) |
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Dark Stranger Member Patricius
since 2001-03-19
Posts 13631West Coast |
Zin... you wear the armor with the pointed ends inside you cluth them til you bleed and you bathe in saltwash acid and still you are lovely when you step to the morning heavy tunes in this...amaZing |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Dark; Thank You ... more then words can say ~~ Connie ~~ |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Connie This poem is written with great emotion and feeling...Sometimes the struggles of our lives cause even the best to feel as you do, or as you have seen... Not being categorized the best...I have felt this myself...But, beauty is only skin deep and true beauty lies within one's heart and soul...Therein lies your own....Just as mine does... Hugs.. Barry |
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Martie
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Sometimes so painful, this life, your poem traps it in gray.. looking around though, hope is a warm blanket. A strong and disturbing poem...stark and real. I wish you well if this is about you. |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Magnus: Thank you for being able to identify... ~~ Connie ~~ |
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Zinsser Senior Member
since 2001-02-27
Posts 1641Calif. |
Martie: Thank you for you comments.... I am glad it made you feel... that is the highest form of praise..... and yes I am fine..... Thanks ~~ Connie ~~ |
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