in the shadows
The house I live in has the spirit memories of three humans who no longer are living. I live in a very old house and over the years many people have moved on to another plane from this location. For whatever reasons, some spirits had their travel plans go awry. One was a man who killed himself in the back yard, another is his wife who died many years later and the third is unknown (or not yet understood).
So, how do I know they are here? Are they maybe just the affects of my imagination? Well, that belief is more comfortable for many than accepting life after death, or energy resonance after death. My self, and all my resident pets - human and otherwise - live with them and we can not deny the obvious. I’ll give you a few examples.
The most active of these is the spirit remnant of the suicide. He was my wife’s uncle and thought he was dying of a disease that frightened him. He was wrong as was determined in an autopsy, but many people just decide they have some fatal disease. He choose death because he was terrified of the disease, or more likely of the then common means of medical treatment, and he did not want all his savings and insurance to be spent on medical bills. Of course he forgot some details. His insurance had a “no pay” clause for suicide so his widow was cheated out of that money and her grief turned her into an alcoholic which pauperized her, though she lived for decades after he died So, maybe he is hanging around because he chose poorly. I don’t know.
How do we experience his presence? Simple things really and nothing very disruptive. He was a handyman, a neighborhood “Mr. Fixit,” and he had a workshop in the basement - no longer there - and he turns on lights down there from time to time. Visitors to the property, especially small children are creeped out if they wander to the back of the property where he hung himself. As a family tradition, we never tell them about the history of the place. We just agree that it is a little creepy back there. Sometimes things disappear, almost always these are tools, and reappear days or weeks later, though occasionally they are gone for good.. The sounds of footsteps are what get to most visitors. Apparently the man suffered from headaches and used to pace to distract himself from the pain. He can be heard some nights walking back and forth along the same path inside the house. This occurs almost always very late at night. People who knew him have said this follows the pattern he used when he was alive. Also, he knocks on inside doors as if to have the door opened, but of course no one is there. I have never heard him knock on the outside doors though, just the inside ones. Occasionally when he is “walking” the house cats will watch as if they are seeing something. Their heads will follow as if they are tracking something. Sometimes they also do this when there is no sound, or will stop what they are doing and stare at a fixed spot in space. Sometimes they become inexplicably frightened and run and hide. Cats do things like that, but there are two of them here and most times, both will react the same way at the same time.
We have all gotten used to these things, but sometimes visitors get a little freaked out. When my oldest son lived here, he would often her “guests” in his room for the evening. More than a few of these young women left very suddenly because they became too frightened to stay. He always was very philosophical about it believing if they frightened that easily they weren’t possible “keepers.” Plus like all of us, I think he developed a kind of household loyalty to the spirits since we look on them as a part of the family.