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I'm Sorry...(added personal disclaimer to explain)
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I'm Sorry...(added personal disclaimer to explain) |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC 
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I'm sorry Daddy that I've had to lie to you It honestly is the last thing I want to do I'd have chosen any other way if I could You just simply have never understood The truth is this secret breaks my heart in two I wish I could just open up to you You're judgements though hurt me This love I've found has set me free You know of my choices, and you don't agree Still you say you have and always will love me I keep this hidden from you, this other life I share Just praying that when you find out...you'll be fair I want you to see more than just deceit...I want you to see the truth and more I need you to understand the whys, to look behind the door There's so much to me you don't see, that I know you saw one long ago But that was before Mama died...when things so easily from me to you flowed Please Dad...know that this hurts me, as much if not more than it hurts you Accept her as well as me when we tell you, help us through the hard times we will go through If you still can not accept, at least then just don't hurt me with the words you say I will do my best not to dissapoint you...and live my life loving you for all the rest of my days [This message has been edited by Aimster (05-24-2002 02:39 PM).] |
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Duncan Member Ascendant
since 2001-08-07
Posts 5455 |
If you still can not accept, at least then just don't hurt me with the words you say It is so sweet that this is really all you're asking for, Amy. Just to be loved for yourself. I hope this poem is something you might be able to share with your father. |
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ethome Member Patricius
since 2000-05-14
Posts 11858New Brunswick Canada |
Lots of honesthearted pleas in this poem Amy. The need for a parents love is so much a part of completeness in a person's life. To have ones individuality and goals accepted, appreciated and respected with love by ones parents is so very fullfilling. I don't know the story behind the affects of your Mother's demise but I do know it's pertinent in this case....made me think a lot! Great poem! |
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Skyfire 
since 2000-12-27
Posts 3381Riding |
I dont' quite know what to say to this. You left me feeling sad, and yet, there's something else there too. I don't know quite what it is, but I do know that I like your writing. I hope everything works out for you  I know Karate, Kung Fu, and 47 other dangerous words |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssssss) Oh Amy, this is sooooooo powerfully heartfelt, sweet friend, every parent should always reach out to their children and I hope they understand you and sympathize with your needs! (kiss on cheek) This is touching, sweet friend, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Amy, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton "Underneath your clothes there's an endless story..." |
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Saunni Senior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 1777West Virginia |
Aim, I do believe with all that you have told me about your Dad that he will love you and accept all you have to share with him. I believe that with all my heart. He loves you Aim and that won't change not for any reason. Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain. L.S |
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Saunni Senior Member
since 2000-07-11
Posts 1777West Virginia |
Just a suggestion, what about handing him this poem...and then at the end explain who it is you care about...maybe that will break the ice. Think? Sauni:)The Only Time I See The Sun Is When I'm Within That Vanilla Breeze.The Only Time I'm One With The Sun Is When He Shelters Me From The Rain. L.S |
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SEA
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Amy, he can't live your life for you, and you can't live your life for him. He's your Dad, and i am sure that no matter what, he will love you, it's what dad's do. this is such a tender heartfelt write, I really hope you share it, and open this part of your life to him, and in turn, set yourself free to be all that you are with him included.love ya gal... I hope it all works out like it should |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
Loads of sadness in this little Aimster but he has to accept you for all that you are and not just what and who he would like you to be, life just isn't always how we expect or want it to turn out to be and we have to accept this and move on. ============================================ I will do my best not to dissapoint you...and live my life loving you for all the rest of my days ============================================ this very line could go the same for him, maybe you need to show this poem to him, so he can understand your sadness and heartfelt longing just for to accept you the way you are, nothing more, nothing less but thats all very easy for me to say...floating winged ~HUGS~ your way sweet Aimster Tracie Love is the life of the soul... |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
normally i don't write personal disclaimers on my poetry...but in this case i did feel the need to... pretty much what's going on with my father and I is this...im adopted, and have been with my dad since i was six years old...my adopted mother who i loved more than life itself passed away back in 1994 when i was sixteen years old from a massive heart attack...life without her was very hard needless to say. my parents had been married for twenty three years and she was his world as well as mine and my sisters. anyways about two years ago i came out. my dad took the news fairly well, but he never accepted it of me really. it was pretty easy for the past two years to accept because i've not been with anyone seriously...or who my dad took seriously anyways. but about nine months ago i met my sweet jena marie who lives in dallas texas. we met online, and i know some of you are prob shaking your head, but she and i have taken our relationship very slow...after about six months of letters, emails, pictures, phone calls, lots and lots of talking, discussing, we met...she flew here to north carolina and we spent a few days together. in the nine months i've known her i have truly fallen head over heels in love. we are both very mature, in our mid twenties, and have similar plans for our life together. anyways, her parents dont even know she is gay...while we have many issues to overcome our primary focus is our love for one another. i've never met anyone like her. anyways, my dad doesn't know about her and everytime i try to tell him he gives me this look...so i've remained quiet. this is what this poem is about. sorry for the length of this note. thank you for reading!! love to you all. Amy "you can't stop |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
things change. . . yes, and hearts open when you least expect them. . . sending warmth your way. . .and wishes. . . -------------------------------------------------------- To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world. |
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Christopher
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Member Rara Avis
since 1999-08-02
Posts 8296Purgatorial Incarceration |
I agree with Susan. Love is love, and the rest just details. walk your path, and like you are - keep that head held high. Chris |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Amy...remember this... Both of you have gone through some tough moments (You and your Dad)...from other events in your lives... Years ago, I would have had difficulty figuring out to handle a similar situation. After years of learning to listen, to try to understand other's feelings...and to not judge critically....I have been more able to face tough issues...without getting upset (to an extreme)....One thing that never waned...was my love of my children.. NO MATTER WHAT had happened... I think your father will not love you any less than he does now... Timing can be tough...and you may have problems figuring out exactly how to approach him... |
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Tracey Member Elite
since 2001-08-29
Posts 2808where insanity meets breeding |
I'm sure all will work out Amy, and your Dad will come to accept her in your life. He loves you...I'm sure he'll come round to acceptance when he knows how much she means to you. |
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SEA
Moderator
Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Amy, the more honest and open you two are about your relationship,you will show your dad and her parents that you are in love and that you are happy in this love. That is all our parents ever really want, is for us to be happy, and to have the person we choose be good to us. You have nothing to hide sweetie. with all that you are... |
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Aimster Member Elite
since 2000-02-19
Posts 4297Charlotte, NC |
thank you all for your kind words and support. love to you all! amy "you can't stop |
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Poet deVine
Administrator
Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Amy, I felt your words of love and pain. Your dad loves you. Have patience with him. Show him how happy you are - the love you've found is rare - a lot of people NEVER find the one that's right for them. So find the joy in your love and just give your dad some time. |
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Larry C
since 2001-09-10
Posts 10286United States |
Amy, Well...as hard as it would be, even for me, I have found there are harder things for a dad to accept. This, as you well know, won't be easy. But I now know a different perspective and it matters. Peace Amy, all my best. |
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