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JP
Senior Member

since 1999-05-25

Posts 1343
Loomis, CA

0 posted 2003-03-04 07:49 PM

Looking down to see the scars,
scars from battles, some won, some lost.
The jagged line across the wrist
a battle of the soul - won or lost?
I can't really be sure.
The quarter-sized scar in the thigh,
.45 caliber they said when they pulled it out.
"You're damn lucky soldier, it's only a flesh wound."
How little they knew that it wounded much more.
We won that battle, so they tell me.
Years later, the battle still rages
and I am constantly on the losing side.
Many scars on the hand and fingers
from little battles through time.
Fights with the wall, a window, a bottle.
Too many mini fights to waste time on remembrance.
The counselor tells me that these are winner's scars.
"You are here, alive, and well - you have won"
Looking at him, I laugh inside.
How little he knows about war - no one ever wins.
Some of us just survive, and lose for eternity.
The scars inside are the most vicious looking.
Jagged, raw, ugly scars on my heart, my mind.
Those are the battle wounds most apparent to me.
I know longer see the outside marks, unless I look.
But I forever feel the inside disfigurement.
How can I heal the scars of murder?
How can I heal the wounds of a liar?
How can the spirit ever soar with wings clipped
by my own refusal to forgive?
I sigh, and look at the scars of battle
Some won - to leave me physically alive
others lost - to leave me in eternal death

Yesterday is ash, tomorrow is smoke; only today does the fire burn.
Nil Desperandum, Fata viem invenient

SPIRIT
Senior Member

since 2002-12-29

Posts 1745
California Desert

1 posted 2003-03-04 08:10 PM

Wow! Powerful write, brought tears to my eyes.

Jason Lyle
Senior Member

since 2003-02-07

Posts 1438
With my darkling

2 posted 2003-03-04 09:23 PM

As IHve never killed, maybe I can never understand. A powerful, honest write.
Jason

passing shadows
Member Empyrean

since 1999-08-26

Posts 45577
displaced

3 posted 2003-03-05 04:31 AM

very intense

Phantom Poet
Member

since 2003-03-03

Posts 116
Arizona USA

4 posted 2003-03-06 07:14 PM

good write
>>phantom poet<<

Poet deVine

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Member Seraphic

since 1999-05-26

Posts 22612
Hurricane Alley

5 posted 2003-03-06 07:45 PM

I feel like I know you better from this. You've opened up and exposed yourself with this poem JP. I've admired you for years..not just your work..but YOU the person. I'm very glad to be able to read you again.

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