Huan Yi means being shot at by people who are serious about wanting to kill him. He's been through the experience as, I believe, a Marine.
Being at a place where you believe you are in immanent danger of dying or watching somebody die changes you considerably. This doesn't mean that what you're feeling right now isn't very frightening. It is. It's also something that somebody brings up every couple of years and hangs onto one date or another. The year 1000, for example, was widely believed to be the end of things. There have been predictions since shortly after the death of Christ that the world was going to end very shortly indeed. Some folks in the first few years after Christ's death may not have gotten married because of their fear that the end was going to be so immediate. Only a few years ago, a small religious group committed suicide together to ascend to a spaceship they were sure was coming to pick them up. If you do some research, you'll find these examples don't even begin to scratch the surface of people's fear of the end of the world, and of the number of times it's been predicted, and of the number of times it hasn't happened.
My entire childhood and the entire childhoods of my entire generation was lived under the fear that the world was about to come to an end due to atomic idiocy, or due to chemical or biological weapons. About this, there was some real possibility. In 1962 The U.S. and The Soviet Union came very close indeed, and there were apparently other occasions as well.
It will happen someday. But I wouldn't say that 2012 is such a great candidate, certainly no better than 1000 or 2000 were. In the meantime, it wouldn't hurt if you put some of that free floating anxiety into dealing with environmental issues, so that you end up with healthier air to breath, and your kids do too, and so that there's enough food for you and your kids, and water. These are much more solid problems that need actual action to bring about solutions to prevent the human race from expiring from stuff that we can prevent.
There are things you can do something about and things you can't. You can do something about the environment. The 2012 stuff is more of the same crazy distractions folks have been using since forever to keep from dealing with the important stuff that right in front of their faces. It gets people so nutty they sometimes forget to breathe.
Come-on, Dark Star, don't get yourself so panicky you forget to breathe! You've got more important things to do.
Sincerely, Bob Kaven