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Kellie_Cantrell
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since 2002-05-22
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0 posted 2007-04-03 06:04 AM


I guess no matter how old you grow, some people don't want to let go. I don't know why exactly but whatever I do is not good enough for certain people in my life. I've found recently that I am incapable of making my own decisions, not by my own accord but that my decisions are not able to be validated because certain people in my life don't approve.

I think I've done a pretty good job at judging situations in my life thus far. I've never done anything illegal and I certainly haven't ever had kids. I am 22 years old and I think I am perfectly capable of falling in love without everyone elses approval.  Who gives a rats ass if someone is overweight. Some of the most loving and intellegent people in the world are fat. Society has a film over their eyes thinking that being skinny is "the thing to be" truly it isn't and who cares what other people think.  Life is made up of choices and everyone is entitled to make their own mistakes. Sure we can learn from other peoples mistakes but we have to go out in the world and make our own too. Not everybody is perfect, I am certainly far from but don't ever tell me I am not good enough or someone that I love is not good enough.

I am sick of being told that I am fat and that that makes me unlovable. Or that the person that I love is fat therefore I cannot love them. Well, let me tell you something, just because someone is fat does not mean that they are not a good person or have a loving heart. If you can't handle that or can't handle who I love or care about then maybe I need to be a little bit more judgemental in who I care about and who I want to have in my life, you may see me editting out a lot of my unhealthy relationships soon. I can't handle the drama of being judged for who I am or who I care about. If you are preventing me from happiness you are basically dead to me.

-kellie marie


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nakdthoughts
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since 2000-10-29
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Between the Lines
1 posted 2007-04-03 07:20 AM


Maybe you need to stop caring so much about what others think and live your life the best you can. Only you can let others' feelings control you.  Besides why does everyone have to know everything about   your life. Sometimes keeping things on the quieter side is healthier...you shouldn't need to look for approval from the outside.

You are young ( I know you are probably tired of hearing that) and you have many, many years to go..so take each day at a time and try to enjoy it.

Sometimes people for whatever reason, sometimes their own insecurities, will comment on another or talk behind their backs knowing it will get back to that person,just because they get a reaction out of them. Try not to react and maybe they will give up picking on you.

M

Kellie_Cantrell
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since 2002-05-22
Posts 1667
New York
2 posted 2007-04-03 07:56 AM


Guess I misinterpretted my mom. Whoops.
Local Rebel
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since 1999-12-21
Posts 5767
Southern Abstentia
3 posted 2007-04-03 10:40 PM


I can only assume what that last statement means Kell -- so I'll ignore it completely.

Rather -- I'm going to speak in general terms.

If one thinks one is competent at making judgements about people then one must have used that competence when picking friends.  The devices at our disposal in the picking of friends are not always available to us when we're 'in love' though -- so, if we have, indeed, executed sound judgement in our personal relationships -- then -- if those closest to us for some reason have misgivings about our love-interest then we would be foolish not to rely on our prior judgements.  That is not to say that our 'friends', however competent they may be, are privy to the finer details of our romantic partner -- so elaborate communication and deliberation may be required.

We can pick our friends though -- we have no choice in family.  Some mothers should be listened to.

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