Never close enough
Well, I just clicked on the LOGIN button, and I am the only one logged in (no thanks nessesary Ron, I'm holding the fort down lol) Really, I am a compulsive insomniac that can't sleep until way after 4 and then I'm up at 8 starting over again. At this rate, I think I have lost enough sleep to shorten my life. Is that possible?
Anyway, I think that my main hang-up and the whole not being able to sleep thing is that I have so much on my mind that I have to just about pass out from sleep deprivation in order for the wheels up there to stop spinning. And then? Hell, I dream about what was keeping me awake in the first place. I think that in my former life (if such things are possible) I was one of them lazy no-good couch potatos that never done anything but sleep my life away, and so now as a last laugh and punishment I have been sentenced with a life of constant worry, and more up time than down.
If I were a car motor - I would be in the junkyard already. I have put more miles on these old treads than I care dare to try and count.
My teenager is driving me crazy and I swear one of us aint gonna make it outta this in one peice. I know I was never this bad, cause I had military dad and he would have killed me. I think my son hates me, which I have told him that hate will build character, and he mumbled something and I wanted to knock his head off. Why in the hell dont teenagers just SAY IT instead of mumble it. I think that mumbling smart mouth is gonna make me lose it one day lol
My 12 year old is trying to be JUST like his brother. Which I dont even need to elaborate on (just read above)
My 9 year old daughter has recently become allergic to the sound of my voice, and therefore does nothing that I tell her to do until I spank her rear-end (dont even mention time out) my kids love time out, its a break for them to sit on there butt for a few minutes and not be asked to do anything.
The only person that is not driving me insane is my baby girl. Yet, she has this funny look in her eyes sometimes like "Hmmm, I'm gonna be just like them when I grow up."
And my hubby?
Well, he says that this is all normal and that I shouldnt lose any sleep over it....
And yet... here I am at 4 in the morning telling all my problems to an empty server that will soon be packed with cyber friends.
Some drink alone... I surf alone lol
And... today is only Monday. Pray tell what the rest of the week holds.
Yall have a good one, and I'll be back around 8am
I may hate myself in the morning - but I'm gonna love you tonight
-Lee Ann Womack