A Romantic Heart
Forever In Your Heart
Ladies and gentlemen of the jury,(what we have here is a failure to communicate)LOL
Standing back, refraining from posting and allowing time for observations of replies...
It is a timely manner to post my observations..first of all I must say in defense for myself,(only because I feel I have been attacked) that I have been a five year member to PIP as well.
During these five years, not once have I crtiqued or said any harsh words to another person, personally I am not God and I feel I have no right to judge others, "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you".
Degree or not...it all comes down to the matter of the heart...
My heart has always been full of love for others, no need to defend myself, for my poetry, replies and heart speaks for itself. the proof is in the pudding.My pudding taste sweet...not sour...
Yes I am a passionate and very caring, sensitive person, so I accept it as an honor it you want to label me a defender of people..etc.
Along with passion comes belief and when I feel something is unjust, not right,I will take a stand, even till death to try and attain justice, fairness, etc.
Most of the time thoughout my five years at PIP, I have not "made waves", remained quiet. In my first Alley post, maybe I should have stated that my statement was due to a five year "observation" not just "assuming".
Really there were no assumptions, I have received several emails from certain people who I respected and chose not to name their name.
The critique given by servn was not the complete reason for my post. I can take critisim, "loving" critisim with a grain of salt. As I have done before and just ignored it. Continueing to ignore a problem does not make it go away. If I am correct, out of the five years of PIP, this was the first critique I had received from servn.
My critique was flagged, but there is a space allowed for me as the poet to choose the kind of critique I accept. That is MY right as a member. My statement was "be gentle my heart breaks like glass", and if you don't have anything nice to say...then don't say ot at all."....How much more blunt did I have to put it? maybe I should say "no harsh or rude critiques" just friendly replies....and yes that is my preference then so be it that is my right to accept critisim or not.I just don't like someone who doesn't even know me to drop in out of the blue and start crtique on me especially if I didn't ask for it in the first place..maybe the critical analysis 2 forum was becoming to dull...not exciting enough.
If I wanted to be critiqued, I would post in the forum that is specifically made for this. If anyone knew me well enough, they do know I have been through alot in my life and I have overcame many obstacles, I am a strong woman, and I do respect others to not personally attack them and respect their wishes when it comes to critique preference.
The major point of my first post in the Alley was from observation of seeing new poets post ( over a five year period) and see them sometimes get a critical reply and then you never see them post ever again...
Out of concern and love....I wanted to reach out and stop this from occuring to anyone else....
I posted to be true, not to sit back and everything is pretend or a bed of roses, because life is not. I acknowledge this the same as everyone else. I feel the same.
Personally I am not one for argueing, maybe good discussion. Discussion brings forth truth and honesty..realness. To make or break relationships...discussion is good if communicated in the right cival way.
Now I have noticed the cliques that is true, this is just my opinion, but it sometimes is this: you scratch my back, I'll scratch yours mentality. (Possibly having nothing to do with the poetry itself, but the person posting).
Secondly...I do nothing for show, everything I do comes from my heart, and if my heart is on trial, it alone proves my case.
Thirdly: there is a difference between critique in the real world and on the net. Critisim from a friend, a teacher, co-worker is usually one-on-one and a relationship has been established before critisim is made. With the net,millions of viewers see it...so when you are critized on PIP it is not just between two people.
With that in mind, knowing we are in front of others, it IS actually like a show, a reality show, with lots of characters. I am a very humble and modest person..never have I been egotistical..never will!
Fourth: Phil is doing what his heart feels, after all he is just like each of you..(protecting your friends and loved ones) just as you feel to post because of friendship, etc. yes some of his intent may have been in my defense, after all he is only human..a man in love...maybe he had observed and wanted to make a statement for what he believes in. We all have the human spirit to stand for what we believe in.All his comments etc. was his choosing...whatever his reason, I support his stand. on issues..but not personal attacks.(under no circumstance is personal attacks from anyone or to anyone justified)about Ron...or anyone!
To sum it up, Yes I felt violated to a degree AFTER reading Svrns words in her post to my alley post. 1. Because she named me personally, 2. She said things about me without knowing me as a person.
In my alley post, I had used the figure of speech "English Professor" this was not intented for a certain person..or persons..or anyone with an English degree.Honestly I had no idea of who had what? I applaud anyone with such accomplishment!
Being at PIP has been good and bad, it has ups and downs. Just like life itself, my purpose in life as a human being is love and give love and peace, but sometimes it is that love, that passion that is the driving force behind making changes for the betterment of society or for personal reasons.
This is just all my two-cents worth and you can take it or leave it.
Lovingly I feel I will post my poems and I know I am not the greatest or near it. If you like it, and it makes you feel something inside your heart, if it stirs you, moves you...good.If you don't, then don't reply. there is enough negativity in the world, our lives without adding more.
I could care less what people think or say...and if someone didn't make me feel violated, then I would not feel I need to put this post in defense of my personality.
It is my life, my heart, and I am the one living it. They don't live my life, for me nor do they walk in my shoes.
As for PIP, I just wanted to make a note that I will not be posting poetry for sometime, not due to the current situations. I had decided this about a month ago when starting a book..or books that I am writing to be published.I am going to focus, putting all my heart and effort into the books. I agree about getting off the net and living a life..a real life...balance of both is the key.
In closing, I wish you love, peace, and fairness, A heart that is filled with love is better to share than one that is not...share love, kindness, not negativity. Love one another as you would love yourselves--------Peace!
Ps.One final note...do I believe apologies should be stated...yes! all the way around....on both sides of the fence!
Open your eyes, open your mind, open your heart, let me come in and show you love.....~ARH