I did indeed delete this. Instead of bitching about it, maybe I'll tell why I was kicked out of the "Chess Club".
"No KILLER INSTINCT."
I was told that while I had a great grasp of the game, and understood the strategy of controlling center board--through the use of "understood" sacrifices no less--oh yes, we all know...manipulate the pawns and manipulate opponents moves through knight, bishop, and rook--
corner, move, and KILL.
I never could do that.
I always saw a human hand moving the pieces from the other side, and hopefully will never forget my own humanity. ("don't look at their eyes", my coach used to say.)
Serenity is pissed. Mostly at herself.
But it's all a choice I suppose.
But I would rather die, pissed on--knowing I followed my heart--than to die just pissed off.
If this was a choice? I was gonna be pissed off anyway.
At least I liquidated my own grave.
[This message has been edited by serenity blaze (12-27-2002 04:17 AM).]