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Severn
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25 posted 12-31-2002 01:11 AM       View Profile for Severn   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Severn

Or Our Lady Peace - Not Enough, that song. That screams a lot, loudly. Not as loud as your ones Mikey...but loud enough for me...

K
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26 posted 01-09-2003 05:10 PM       View Profile for gemjop   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for gemjop

i am ssssssoooooooooooo stressed!!!!!!!!!
i'd like to say; I HATE ASSIGNMENTS.
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27 posted 01-11-2003 09:42 PM       View Profile for Skyfire   Email Skyfire   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Skyfire

*fumes silently*
I can't say what I'm angry about, but....


AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sighs*  Much better
defenestrate
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28 posted 01-12-2003 11:16 AM       View Profile for defenestrate   Email defenestrate   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for defenestrate

to the one for whom i justify my mistrust of everything in sight-

8 years. 8 years of history-good and bad. i sacrificed more than anyone ever did. for you. and how do i get repaid? with a middle-school styled note telling me that you think we should take a step back and live for the day. which would work for me, aside from the fact that instead of living what you said, you went and slept with him instead, following with a note about wanting to be friends. a lie within a lie within a lie. after months of making up excuses for your being cold "oh, being unemployed is stressing me out-i'll be better about it when i get a job". lies. the lot of it. but i decided that i was going to give you another chance this time-you wouldn't THINK of leaving me for someone else again. that was just a nervous breakdown. lies. i could have just snapped your neck, but instead, i hit bottom. again. i'm ashamed of myself. i'm ashamed that after 8 years of your habitual lack of straightforward communication about anything that might be harder than smalltalk, i still trusted you. i put my heart on the line for you, and you micturated upon it like you didn't even notice. and then you have the gall to pretend it's important to you that we remain close, somehow. carefully worded sidesteps all the way. just because you don't confess, doesn't make you innocent. and after all of this, you have the gall to be passive aggressive to me, to issue idle threats at every turn that might contain me and the truth in relative vicinity. to bait me just like your mother would bait you. to act self-righteous when the only person who cared enough to try to save you tried to express his despair over it all. i burned some of the most valuable years of my life trying to help you be at peace in your own skin. well, it looks i succeeded. too bad you're too cool for the only person who was willing to take the time to listen, to hold you when you were reliving the trauma you clung to, to repel, by any means necessary, anyone who tried to hurt you. if it weren't for the boy, i would not even be able to rationalize the thought of interacting with you in any way, shape or form. but here i am, trying to figure out how to see you as a human being, instead some divine curse meant to wither my faith in the world i live in. i was right. you're not worthy of my contempt. but i sure wish you had acted like those 8 years were anything more than the buildup for your grand climax, your great performance for everyone on earth but me.

but i will find closure. every effort you have made to suck me dry of energy is, in fact, made in vain. if i have to burn everything that bears your name, if i have to pen 1000 songs, and countless pages of poetry to cleanse myself of the stench of your lies, if i have to replace my limbic system with folger's crystals, i'll do it. and i'll never sink to the level you have again and again. i'll never break my word to you. because it's done more for me than you ever have. and i deserve better than to join you in the ranks of lesser traitors. i will release myself, and i will walk my path, alone if necessary, until i reach its end. i hope you find happiness-but it will never again be at my expense.

(breathes)
(edits)

[This message has been edited by defenestrate (01-12-2003 11:19 AM).]

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29 posted 01-30-2003 12:39 AM       View Profile for aaron woodside   Email aaron woodside   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for aaron woodside

AMEN!!!!!   I'm sorry you got screwed over by a girl, and believe me I can sympathize with you, beyond belief.  It's sad how the saying that goes, "the ones you care about the most, are the ones who will hurt you the most" is absolutly true.  Life just sux sometimes and it's all becuase of some stupid relationship.  

Good luck with this.  if you figure out a way to get over it, tell me.  Put it on the news, I'm sure there are countless other guys across the world who need the help too.

ex animo,
Aaron

There are no great men, only men in great circumstances.

defenestrate
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30 posted 02-04-2003 03:52 AM       View Profile for defenestrate   Email defenestrate   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for defenestrate

actually, writing that provided me with some closure in and of itself. i'm feeling quite a bit more at peace now, though i'm sure i have a little angst left to try and pipe out at some point. i just need to figure out how to summon my muse for writing..
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31 posted 02-04-2003 08:17 AM       View Profile for KristieSue   Email KristieSue   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit KristieSue's Home Page   View IP for KristieSue

Aaron, nice guys finish last BUT women save the best for last?  Sounds horrible.... and, not all women are looking for "Bad guys".  Guess when the right one comes along, we know it, and all the past is brushed away....

gosh I hope that's the case ;-)
nichola_louise
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32 posted 02-24-2003 10:01 PM       View Profile for nichola_louise   Email nichola_louise   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for nichola_louise

ok i am just going to vent......

i am madly deeply in love with the sweetest guy in the world. i want to marry him. he has feelings for me, but at the same time whenever anything gets close to being intimate or personal he pulls back. and this frustrates me, i have tried talking to him about it, tried to find out why he pulls back but he can't or won't explain.

i scares me. i have poured my heart out to him, i have given in and trusted him after not trusting anyone for so long, but it seems he doesn't trust me......

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........i wish i understood........i wish he would explain...

he means the world to me and i dont want to lose him, but it feels as if he is already lost..

Josh, if you ever read this, know that i love you, and whatever is holding you back can be sorted out. nothing is unforgivable, nothing is unsolvable......please just tell me what is going on

i love you
Nichola
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33 posted 02-24-2003 10:19 PM       View Profile for KristieSue   Email KristieSue   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit KristieSue's Home Page   View IP for KristieSue

lets see....trying to decide what to scream about first....

1.  My friend and I haven't spoken since Saturday because he doesn't listen to anything I say anyway.  I told him this and I guess he is choosing to not speak to me at all now....

2.  I do in-home nursing for a man with MS.  He is deciding that he no longer wants me as his nurse.  I chose to have personal conversations with him, revealing that I've had sex before marriage.  We've talked about everything....and more than once.  I thought this was no big deal.  Now, I find out he hates his mother for sleeping around, and decided now he can't stand me.

3.  Now I'm in danger of losing my home, everything....cause I can't afford to miss one paycheck...

there's more, but I think those are the biggest things....

[This message has been edited by Ron (02-24-2003 11:18 PM).]

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34 posted 02-28-2003 10:52 PM       View Profile for PoetryIsLife   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for PoetryIsLife

K said: "....so I can forget about life and what a goddam mess it is."

Amen to that.

*fumes about everything*

~Titus


"On the plains of Hesitation lie the blackend bones of countless millions, who, at the verge of victory, sat down to wait, and waiting - died."
    

[This message has been edited by PoetryIsLife (02-28-2003 10:54 PM).]

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35 posted 03-04-2003 07:50 PM       View Profile for Dopey Dope   Email Dopey Dope   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Dopey Dope

*sigh*
i need a car
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36 posted 03-05-2003 06:03 PM       View Profile for Amara   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Amara

Does needed to cry count? I guess I could scream...it might help...

Today at school we had to do a block run in gym. (A timed run, for a certain distance...around the school, basically.) So, we start running, and then a group of girls (10-14) decided to cut (you know, so teh run's shorter.) They got a really good time, and all went inside. Then me 'n' one of my close friends came in, and then a bit later our other friends. The teacher said our times were really good, and today's times were all good. Alicia (my friend) was like "I wonder why." The teacher asked us if anyone skipped, and me and Alicia ended up saying yeah, some people skipped. We said no names, just that some did. Later the teacher asked the class to step forward if the cut, and a bunch did. They got in trouble, etc., the works. They all said I told the teacher who cut, names and all, and they're MAD. A couple asked if it was me who told her who, and I said no. I didn't! I just said some skipped! They were talking in the change room, and sayign how Alicia was too nice to tell, it had to be me. (Yeah, I'm not the most popular. Never have been, one of those things. These things seem to happen every once in awhile.) Then they started sayign how awful I was, etc., and that they were gonna make my life 'A living hell.' In their words. Then a couple walked by after school, talking about me (so I could hear), and a whoel bunch walked by and called me names, and all sorts of things. I mean...yeah, I feel kinda like crying now. It's not fair! I didn't even tell! I didn't! And, I mean, why does everyoen hate me so much? Am I so easy to hate? Am I such a mean person?

Sorry for my horrible typing skills. Blurry eyes, you see. Thanx for listenning.


That's what we, as heroes, do. We live as if the world were like it should be, to show the world what it could be.
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37 posted 03-05-2003 09:23 PM       View Profile for Skyfire   Email Skyfire   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Skyfire

*big huge hugs*
Just remember this: YOU DID NOTHING WRONG

Sometimes you find a friend where once there wasn't one. Sometimes you find a love where once there was a friend.

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38 posted 03-06-2003 03:13 AM       View Profile for KristieSue   Email KristieSue   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit KristieSue's Home Page   View IP for KristieSue

I'm tired of being lied to!  I'm tired of paying for trusting someone!  I'm tired of losing people because I can't tolerate lying!  This last one is NOT something I want, and I Don't know how to fix it.  I want it to be over...and I don't want it to be true.  But, it is... and that is killing me.  Not because I never had forever love, but because I lost a forever friend.  I don't know what was real and what wasn't.  It's killing me inside because I really have lost trust in every human on this earth.  I just want to sit here and never leave my home again.  If this person betrayed me, everyone will.  My light at the end of the tunnel is a train, and I wish it would just run me over already...

and see, y'all, sometimes someone realizing how you feel about them (even though they misconstrued (sp) that!) isn't the best thing.  They make a fool of you and blow it all out of proportion and mock you....

and leave you wanting to never trust, care for or love another person on this earth again.
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39 posted 03-07-2003 03:42 AM       View Profile for Skyfire   Email Skyfire   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Skyfire

I can taste blood in my mouth... not good

Sometimes you find a friend where once there wasn't one. Sometimes you find a love where once there was a friend.

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40 posted 03-07-2003 06:34 PM       View Profile for Child of the Stars   Email Child of the Stars   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Child of the Stars

i burned my tongue on chinese food. ow...when will the cravings stop...

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41 posted 03-07-2003 08:40 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

cravings?

smiling now...they don't stop.

(and in case you are expecting, that reminded me of a story---everybody yawn and make a quick exit--)

BUT..I had my children close together and they were toddlers and if you think I'm crazy NOW? Hrmph! But I recall calling my mom on the phone, moaning, "When does the whining stop???) and she replied,

"You are 31 years old on the phone whining to me NOW--IT NEVER STOPS!!!"

(see how I come by my natural nurting instincts?)
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42 posted 03-07-2003 08:51 PM       View Profile for Kielo   Email Kielo   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Kielo

heh... a friend of mine... her mom has weird cravings. My friend was telling us "She eats ice cream with pickles!" I thought that was kinda cool... but that's just me. Her next comment was "And that's when she's NOT pregnant!" heh... Yes. That is my only interesting comment related to cravings.

As far as wanting to scream... Now... that's an entirely different story. I think I should like very much to scream at myself. I'm so naive... *sigh* I haven't ruined anything yet, but if I'm not careful, (to use the words of a friend) "everything will go to hell." Yes.

BUT! I am surprisingly well the past month. Its very pleasant to be so happy all the time.

Kielo

I know only one thing, and that thing is that I know nothing.

Bec
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43 posted 03-09-2003 07:39 AM       View Profile for Bec   Email Bec   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Bec

I will scream, cry, throw things, whatever you'll let me do. Without going into details, I have just been fumbling through life since a major break up two weeks ago. I thought he was the love of my life, but now, well, I guess not. Every one has been lovely, but they can't stop the nights I lie awake thinking "what if". "What if" isn't going to change things, but I'm pretty lonely and just wanted to talk.

Bec

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-Winnie-the-Pooh

 
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