San Juan, Puerto Rico
Ever heard Chris Isaac's song "Wicked Game"?
Well that's exactly how I feel right now. After a year of being single, bitter, and apathetic about women I've come to realize that maybe it's time for a change.
I had a girlfriend for 4yrs, and that relationship pretty much set me up for disaster. I really don't trust people, and I really have no idea what's going on right now.
I met a girl, I really like her. Thing is this, and I feel so pathetic saying this: She's from california and I met her on the internet.
Now, I used to have internet GF's, but I was 13! I mean, give me a break. I promised myself after finally achieving a real life flesh GF that I wouldn't go back to doing this sort of thing. I mean, I can get girls HERE! I have a few who have been bothering me about being their little "friends with benefits" or be their boyfriend, but it all seems to useless to me when all I am thinking about is this girl who lives a gazillion miles away.
I met her in an MTV chat room, talked her like nothing, e-mailed her about some tid-bits of my life back in PR....came to GA for my second year of uni and now we talk on the phone all the time. I can't stop thinking of her, and she likes me too (a lot). However, I'm not going to stop living my life due to a girl who lives in CALIFORNIA while I'm stuck here in Atlanta, GEORGIA. She's obviously living her life as well, but recently something hit me. I'm starting to feel a lot more than what I previously thought I could feel. I think it's absurd to be feeling this for somebody I haven't seen in person, but in its absurdity it seems to make sense to me. Why would I put myself through so many emotions if it wasn't special, if she wasn't special.....
This is playing with fire folks, I have no idea what is going on.
Am I setting myself up for another disaster?
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[This message has been edited by Dopey Dope (10-14-2002 04:06 PM).]