I apologize to one and all for my lack of input during the events of the last couple of days. The happenings have not been easy for me to incur as an individual as I hold deep friendships on both sides of the ongoing arguments and for the most part, don't think or react clearly in moments of such stress do to occurances in my past, which most of you at least have some idea of.
DreamEvil is a goodfriend of mine and when he hurts I hurt, as I am now. I feel I can say this in total confidence that Dream and I will still be friends when I am finished. Dream, made a conscious decision to post a piece that he knew would draw some controversy as similiar pieces in the past have. He did this having been warned for at least one previous incident, (This was not a first offence). This being the case, with Dream not just being a member of Passions, but a moderator that represents Passions, I think Ron did the best possible thing in Passions' interests. Ron, has allowed Dream to stay on with passions as a member, which is commendable. I don't know how Ron could or would expect anyone to follow his rules, (which we all agreed to in becoming members), if he allowed his moderators to break them consistantly.
Freedom of speech is the main argument I keep seeing here. Well, freedom of speech has not been hindered. I am allowed, as are all of you, to write anything. I have the right to post it on the net on "my own" web page...Freedom of speech does not give me the right to post it on "any" web page nor even leave such a link without owner's permission. That we can read such material as Dream posted in any bookstore has no bearing here...we are not in a bookstore. This is Ron Carnell's web page and we are all guest on it. Ron has set some simple guidelines and if they can't be appreciated, there are plenty lesser quality pages out there with much lower standards, I'm sure.
Let me reiterate that DreamEvil is a close friend of mine. He has helped me through some pretty tough times. I know Ron views him as a friend too, and that this whole incident has been hard on all involved.
I only hope that somehow when all this dust clears, views on my friendship haven't swayed.
Systematic Decay and Kess have been pretty adamant in stating their cases here in the Alley, and with the upmost respect to both of them, I would only like to state that neither has been with the page long enough to understand all that has transpired here. This wasn't all based on the one incident which you have witnessed, nor will I go into detail drudging up past events.
Others who do know more regrettably have not stepped forward but I feel I must for one reason, anyway. Isabelle Skye is a long time friend who was deeply frightened by what she read in Dream's post. I should first remind some people that she was directed to that post to that post by someone knowing she would be disturbed...being that she is a mother of two and in the hopes that she would react as she did...as I was also directed to the post in the same manner.
That Izzy posted her "emotional" response to the public may not have been in her best judgement but then...I don't fully understand that it can be viewed as equally damaging as the questionable post itself. One was made out of a conscious decision and probably took hours to write. One was written in about 5 minutes with shaking hands from an emotionally overwhelmed, frightened mother and posted without having time to think better of it...this I know because I was talking with Izzy as she posted it.
Ron, she even sent me the message before she posted it and I told her she should post what she felt...I am as much to blame as anyone. A lot of people were deeply upset and I was caught right in the middle. In posting this, I hope I am not doing Passions anymore damage than has already been done. I also hope you can understand that I cannot leave Izzy out here alone, when she didn't exactly come here by her own choosing, nor post her reply to Dream's poem in complete disregard to you or Passions. In thoroughly understanding her views, and caught up in all the emotion that was swirling around the page, I told her to post her note as is...which to me leaves just as much in err as she.
I would ask that you give careful consideration to your decision on Izzy's moderatorship. She has been with Passion's from the get, and in my view hasn't done that bad by it. You gave Dream at least one warning, I would hope Izzy deserves at leat the same. Ron, please understand I am NOT questioning your judgement, only asking you to consider what you may not have known in making this decision.
I would ask certain others to at least email Ron if you do not feel capable of stepping forward and you know who you are that I refer to. Izzy and Dream, you are both very dear to me. I love you both and wherever this leads I hope we will alway be friends.
These are simply my views and concerns, I am mentally exausted, I will not argue them with anyone at present.
[This message has been edited by Michael (edited 11-01-1999).]