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Momma (Rough...but I wanted to say it)
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Momma (Rough...but I wanted to say it) |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA 
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Why can’t I tell you I miss you Of the emptiness I feel without.. Without your face, smile, voice without you here when I... When I needed someone to talk to... When I was afraid, even as a man.. When I needed your warmth, comfort When I was alone...lost in life... I cried that day, I still do.. You were not there... I saw you everywhere I walked... I heard your laughter, I turned... nothing behind me... But...I knew you were... were there every step I took.. Wanting to say...stop Son, listen to me.. Don’t go that way... I couldn’t hear your words... I wanted to, more than ever... I strained to hear them... silence greeted me.. I would touch that cold stone knowing you were there..sleeping.. Saying...Hi Momma, I’m here... I love you Momma... I miss you... I always wondered if.... If it would have been different now If you were here to turn to... To talk to, to rely on, to confide in.. To take my shame away...my guilt.. To help me feel whole, alive.. Though you are gone...you are here.. You are half of me...I am half of you... I have your temper, your anxiety... I have your hair, your complexion.. I have your sensitivity, compassion Most of all....I have your memory.. And your love... |
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Lady In White
since 2001-02-12
Posts 2799USA |
If this is rough, I would understand for you still miss her loss of hand held within yours, fragile, pale but on the wind, your words have sailed she now looks with pride upon you for all you write, and all you do... |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
L In W.... Excuse me while I sit here and cry a little. Thank You!!!! |
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suthern
since 1999-07-29
Posts 20723Louisiana |
This is filled with so much intense emotion... polishing it would almost be an injustice. It speaks love and the anguish of missing very well, Magnus... and speaks to all of us who've experienced loss. |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
suthern...thank you very much for your thoughts....you're right...leave it as is.. for the heart wrote the words...not the hand. |
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Pilgrimage Member Elite
since 2001-12-04
Posts 3945Texas, USA |
I was just sailing along, having a fun afternoon reading all the silly stuff, and I knew I shouldn't read this. But I did. And it made me tear up right away. Beautifully done. Nan |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Nan...thank you...sorry for the tears...I have shed a few...putting it rather lightly.. I had never written anything about my mother, and I felt I needed to... I know there are some here and out there who never even had the opportunity to experience the joy of a mother...I had that joy...and I am thankful for that...I just wish I still had it...she was 40 when we lost her suddenly...and would be 71 right now....I often wonder what she would look like now....I know I would still recognize her eyes and her smile...those never change.. |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
OhMagnus~ ...~ '....I often wonder what she would look like now....I know I would still recognize her eyes and her smile...those never change..' For now .... I simply cannot speak my thoughts~ I'm sorry ... I will return~ ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Marge...it is OK...It is just a part of me that I wanted to let out...I know she would be smiling now.... |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (big hugggssssss) Oh Barry, this is so very sad, sweet friend, I know these feelings of absence so much too and my heart goes out to you, for I too always cry and feel scared about going onto college and having to cope on my own! (sigh) My heart goes out to you, sweet friend, I am always here if you need someone to talk to, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Barry, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Noah... All birds have to leave the nest...to become an adult bird and eventually be the guardian of a new nest... Have courage young man, spread your wings and soar into your future...You can do it! Thank You Noah... |
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Greeneyes
since 2000-09-09
Posts 9903In Your Poetic Mind |
Barry~ Isnt it amazing where we find our strength, even when it all seems so helpless..that inner voice calls and tells us.....you have much courage, and a ton of compassion to write such words of complete love....I am honored to have read this....(next time please offer a tissue warning,  I am keeping this) thank you....  Lauren~ Greeneyes~ Step through the barrier of my mind, enter my soul, feel my desire, let my eyes guide you into the shadows of my heart [This message has been edited by Greeneyes (03-26-2002 07:30 PM).] |
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strbbux Member Elite
since 2001-12-19
Posts 3859 |
Barry this is a busy week and I just popped on here for a min to check out the page and oh my, am I glad I did. this is heartrenching, I know the loss you speak of so well, it hurts, and Barry, truly writing helps. It helped me so much when I was grieving and still when I start to cry, I sit to write and all gets ok for the time being. This was a most wonderful write from the soul. You have my prayers. floria Floria |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
Barry, just popped in for a minute tonight on hubby's computer and this one jumped off the screen and grabbed my heart. My mother was 46 when she died and I often wonder what she would look like now...sometimes I am fortunate to hear her voice in dreams...... Hugs. ~Somewhere in my heart I'm always |
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Balladeer
Administrator
Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
Just the fact that you wrote this is testament to how special the lady was. Any mother who can instill this degree of love in her children is a giant...you were very fortunate to have her and, I'm sure, vice-versa.... |
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Tracey Member Elite
since 2001-08-29
Posts 2808where insanity meets breeding |
This one touched me deeply Barry. I lost my mom at 52, she’d be nearly 58 now, and there isn’t a day goes by that I don’t miss her. There are so many things that have happened in the last 6 years that I wish I could share with her. You know how it is. If she who dies with the most toys wins, then can I have some toy boys please? |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Michael, Nancy, Floria, Lauren... THANK YOU!!! Yes, I have nothing but the greatest love for a woman who did so much with and for me during the first 21 years of my life.. She was my mother, my fishing buddy, my hunting buddy, later...my best friend who I could sit and talk to about anything. Sadly, I fell in love with my wife about two years before she died....and began to pull away from her...this caused her a lot of anguish...because I stopped writing, didn't call often...she was no longer my number one woman in my life...She grieved over this....until the day she died...and I, in my blindness of love, never knew how much I was hurting her then...That fact has been a burden that I have carried all of my adult life since then...So, I guess you can say that this letter is to her to simply say...Momma...YOU are my Nr. 1 lady of my life...you always have been, and will remain so...until we meet again.. |
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