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How Can I Tell You?
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How Can I Tell You? |
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Suetang Member Ascendant
since 2001-03-07
Posts 5187Melbourne, Australia 
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How am I able to explain Why it is that I stay away Whenever I come to visit you I am reminded of that day As I step through the front door And glance towards my right It's his dying face I see As I remember that awful night I remember him lying so still Barely hours after he died I was not even given any privacy As I lay on his chest and cried With my family all around me I had never felt so much alone I kept my grief hidden inside me Not wanting others to know How do I tell my mother Of these feelings that I hide That I find life sometimes difficult Wihout my Dad here by my side My mother is so strong She has others who are there I just hope that she realises How much I really care * * * * I have had these feelings for nearly three years now and feel ashamed that I feel this way.I feel like a coward as I find myself arranging to meet Mum for coffee at the nearby shopping centre - any excuse so I don't have to go to the family home.I feel guilty for not visiting Mum more often but I just don't know what else to do? Suetang |
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Lady In White
since 2001-02-12
Posts 2799USA |
When things have changed so much, that it no longer feels like home...it is hard to let ourselves do what we know needs to be done...and you are not alone, Sue...many of us have felt that way before... Trust me, you will look back on this move, and be glad you went through it... |
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strbbux Member Elite
since 2001-12-19
Posts 3859 |
Sue, I have been there and I am there now. My husband will not talk of my sons death, He keeps it all inside, and if I bring out pictures that I need to see, he won't look at them, I do think people grieve in different ways, on their own terms, and different lengths of time. You own your own grief and your mother owns her own grief. You may want to talk to her about it one day and if she refuses to hear then let it go. That is what I do. I lean on God, and I go on by myself, I heal through writing and I know you do too. It is not easy Sue, But it will take time. take care. floria Floria |
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Magnus
since 2001-10-10
Posts 14135South Carolina, USA |
Sue.....let her read this poem.... The feeling you have are real...Together, you both can face them and get through this painful time for you... I wish you well.. |
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Mistletoe Angel 
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Sue, this is so very sad, my heart goes out to you and I too would follow Floria's advice, for that is just what I would do too. When you have the heart to, go and visit her, and try and tell her how you feel, and if she can't understand or respect your feelings, then stop there. This is so very sad, sweet friend, my heart goes out to you, we are all here for you if you ever need someone to talk to this over with, here are some extra big hugs just for you! (EXTRA BIG HUGS) We all love you so much, sweet friend, you are in my thoughts and prayers! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Sue, thank you for sharing!  May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton |
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Victoria
since 2000-08-12
Posts 5869 |
Sue..i remember when my sister died i didnt like going to moms because she always looked sad and had my sisters pictures everywhere..but than i realized i should have been there more to comfort her..i did name my daughter after my sister before she died..so i hope that was a comfort to my mother..and my sister..i know it was to me..hugss ~Victoria [This message has been edited by Victoria (03-16-2002 09:04 PM).] |
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