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I Have To love Myself Much More
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I Have To love Myself Much More |
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brianbeaudry Member
since 2001-07-20
Posts 410Northern Ontario Canada 
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Child abuse is the most hideous of crimes, and when its perpetrated by a parent, the one they trust more than any other, where can they go for help? In writing this piece I put myself in the mind of the victim, but can’t truly comprehend their pain for only one that has experienced it knows the depths of suffering they are forced to endure. I do hope it makes people more aware of its existence and join in protest of this deplorable injustice inflicted on some of our youth. At the same time, give the victims reassurance that they are not to blame, and can seek help. Guidance councilors, friends, people you trust can give the support and help you need, reach out for that help, embrace it, know there are those who care !! Dedicated to a special little friend and survivor. I Have To Love Myself Much More Sitting on the corner of my large four-poster bed Silently I mourn as my hands support my head What could be the reason to have me in such strife I have always had most anything in my 12 years of life Truly this is the cause of all my sorrow and dismay Gifts in great abundance, dad, at my feet would lay To ply my young favors and to keep the truth from sight I know in my heart and in God’s eyes this isn’t right But he’s my father and he said I must obey He deeply truly loves me, I would hear him say As he lay down beside me, my innocence to take All the while I prayed, from this nightmare please to wake And after he’d leave me, sobbing and in pain I’d pray for forgiveness, believing it was I that was to blame For how could my father do something that’s so wrong He’s always been so righteous, and in religion very strong Why God must I suffer this, how did it begin And how can I stop it, he will never let me win Each time that I tell him, in God’s eyes this is wrong He tells me he loves me and that to him I belong So please God grant me the strength to put this to an end No matter what his punishment, my soul I must defend For I can’t take the shame nor the horrors anymore For even if I love him, I have to love myself much more. |
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Member Seraphic
since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
this is painful to read, but I think should be read....IT IS NOT OK TO HURT CHILDREN! God will not forgive that sin..... |
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Mistletoe Angel
since 2000-12-17
Posts 32816Portland, Oregon |
 (tears fall down my cheeks) Oh Brian, this is soooooo heartbreaking, I don't understand how fathers can be so abusive to their children, I only wish there could be more loving and compassionate dads like you in the world! (sad sigh) God Bless You, sweet friend, I know abuse so well for I too have been abused and my heart goes out to all these victims of the world and I pray that all who have been abused can find some hope and peace and can find the encouragement to rise and find new hope and love from here on in! (wipes tears) God Bless You, sweet friend, you arev a true angel to us all, we all love you so much! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Brian, thank you for sharing!    May love and light always shine upon you! Love, Noah Eaton [This message has been edited by Mistletoe Angel (02-19-2002 09:11 PM).] |
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Wanda Member
since 2001-10-23
Posts 461 |
Brian; I had to respond to this poem. You and I have talked a little about this before when I posted the poem "Haunted Eyes." No one likes to read or talk about this terrible atrocity that is being perpetrated against helpless children, but talk we must until there is the realization that something must be done about it. There is no more hideous crime, as far as I am concerned. I have known adults who have endured this as children and today, they still suffer. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for posting this. Wanda |
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strbbux Member Elite
since 2001-12-19
Posts 3859 |
Brian, thank you so very much for writing this and posting this. How very sad it is indeed, Jesus said " woe to him that causes one of my little ones to hurt, it would be better that a millstone be tied around his neck and he be thrown into the waters" Now this is not exact wording, and I dont have my bible here, Newell would be able to quote it. This is a hideous crime, and I wish that not only the perpetrators be brought to justice but that there was a way for it to be put to an end. Innocent little children. It makes me cry...Your poem truly touched my heart brian, thank you, floria Floria "Alas for those that never sing, But die with all their music in them" (Oliver Wendell Holmes) [This message has been edited by strbbux (02-19-2002 10:21 PM).] |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
Thank you for this. Live today like it was your last day on earth! |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
BrianB~ A painful read ... but one that is soooooo necessary to write~ *Hugs* ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ |
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amusemi Senior Member
since 2001-12-08
Posts 1262A State of Disarray |
I don't have words...but this piece should be read. I don't want it to leave this page for awhile. |
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passing shadows Member Empyrean
since 1999-08-26
Posts 45577displaced |
back to the top this one goes! very painful but should be read...I agree |
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