thank you, JM.
Gary...is giving up. His cancer has spread throughout his body, now attacking his brain. He left suddenly, went to Idaho a few days ago. I just heard that he is drinking constantly now, staying drunk all the time, killing the pain, the fear, the sadness. (Hopewell is the name of a small town nearby, where he recently lived until a few days ago.) I thought he would go back home, to the south, where he was raised. His mom told me that he wants to be cremated, have his ashes spread on the coast of Oregon. He told me as much the last time we spoke, a couple of weeks ago. I told him he couldn't go yet, and he just laughed.
It is so incredibly sad. I just received the phone number in Idaho where he is staying, but am having trouble making that call. Perhaps, if I do, I'll simply read this and another I wrote for him recently. And then cry.
I put this post in the sanctuary because my heart feels 'safer' here with this news. Thank you, for your soft reply.