This is powerful and touching, Frac... difficult to interpret, of course, but I think that actually adds a lot to the poem by giving the reader more of an ability to relate to the general sense of self-forgiveness, of looking back on one's own past self and trying to see if it's "getting better" or not.
It's sad that you're pessimistic about the future for yourself, Fractal. I'd offer some words of encouragement if I knew exactly what this poem referred to, but I don't. Maybe I'll just talk to you later about it?
I like the style this is written in. It's a good example of the simplicity and bluntness that makes dark poetry so effective, which is exactly why I could never write it myself... the last stanza is perfect and complete, the repeated lines well-selected... overall this is an outstanding poem and deserves more than zero replies.
Glad I took the time to read. Talk to you later, Kev.
Poets are the unacknowledged legislators of the world.
~Percy Bysshe Shelley