I'm honestly not sure what to make of this. Are you trying to say that, in times of crisis, the self is the only thing on which one can, or will, rely? It's curious that the person claims to have no self-esteem or respect, but still has to say, "I don't need your stupid friends to help me." That's like saying, I have no self-esteem, but I am capable of taking care of myself.
I have noticed this system of belief particularly in depressed people I know. It's cyclic and it drags them down. I see how it could apply in "desparate times."
I'm still not sure if this is what you're aiming at with this piece, for all I know it could be a personal vent... but I trust you to correct me if I'm wrong. Thanks for sharing this with us, Frac.
"Faith" means the will to avoid knowing what is true.
~ Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche