Oh, I know this feeling. I just turned eighteen, and I've been reflecting a lot on my past, on how I used to live, compared to how life is now and promises to be from here on in. Sometimes it is difficult to grapple with the fact that our past is gone, especially when we keep being taken "back there."
I like how you have written this with the sense of time held directly at the front of the subject matter. A lot of play on "then" and "now" is a good way to show the importance of the relationship between your past and present.
On a more personal note, I often wonder if looking back is even worth it... if enough of our past still exists in our present, the only thing we have to look back upon are memories and things which no longer exist. Lessons we've gleaned from our experience will stick with us always; even if times were once happier, we were never more knowledgeable.
Great writing as always, Sudhir. Glad to see your face in the Sanctuary, and I hope you stick around.
Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.
[This message has been edited by Local Parasite (11-19-2002 01:27 PM).]