I Just Want to Know (therapy #4)

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peppermint35
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since 2000-05-28

Posts 1106
Texas, USA

0 posted 2002-02-04 04:13 AM

This is so unfair
I don't get a voice
You have shut me out
Away from you
I want you to know
This is breaking me
I can't concentrate
On anything but you
I just can't believe
You won't listen to me
I can't understand
Why this is happening
And everywhere that I turn
There's no answer for me
Losing my hold on reality
And I want to scream
And send back pain
But I won't... no I won't
And I want to die
All I do is cry
But I won't die ... no I won't
Though it's killing me
I will go on
Because I'm strong
Though for the life of me
I cannot really see
A reason why
And I just want to know...

Pepper
"A poem is the very image of life expressed in its eternal truth."
Percy Bysshe Shelley

Marsha

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since 2000-07-10

Posts 7423
Maidstone Kent England

1 posted 2002-02-04 08:18 AM

Pepper darling girl this is wonderful not the pain you are going through but the ability you have to express it my darling girl.

Truly you are an amazing writer ((((((hugs))))))) So you write to release the pain you are doing it sooooooo amazingly well darling heart keep writing and watch the pain fade. Which it will, but not if you don’t write it out

Love and warm stuff
As always
Mushy

To give light to them that sit in darkness..... to guide our feet into the way of peace St John ch2 v1

Irish Rose
Member Patricius

since 2000-04-06

Posts 10263

2 posted 2002-02-04 09:22 AM

This is so unfair
                I don't get a voice
                You have shut me out
                Away from you
                I want you to know
                This is breaking me
                I can't concentrate
                On anything but you
                I just can't believe
                You won't listen to me
                I can't understand
                Why this is happening
                And everywhere that I turn
                There's no answer for me
                Losing my hold on reality
                And I want to scream
                And send back pain
                But I won't... no I won't
                And I want to die
                All I do is cry
                But I won't die ... no I won't
                Though it's killing me
                I will go on
                Because I'm strong
                Though for the life of me
                I cannot really see
                A reason why
                And I just want to know..."

Be kind to yourself, YOU, take time for you. This worries me, the despair. I'm in that place right now, maybe not this bad, not as much, but I have been there. Take time for YOU.

Kathleen--(Kay)
"When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey."
Laurie Lee

Startime
Member Ascendant

since 2000-10-03

Posts 5918
Canada

3 posted 2002-02-04 09:26 AM

*sigh* my heart breaks for you....sometimes we never know the reason why...I wish I had some magical answer that would make the pain go away but it is something only you can work through...write it out..that helps a lot. **big big hugs**

Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams.

peppermint35
Senior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 1106
Texas, USA

4 posted 2002-02-04 01:04 PM

Bless you Marsha... it is working.. slowly but surely... your support means so very much... I hope you know ...

Kathleen.. from the depths of despair I am crawling back up here... thank you for your kindness.. I'm writing it away.. it's getting a little easier ...

Startime.. thank you .. I will continue as needed...

I do want to tell you three and all of you, actually.. this place and ya'll have helped me more than anything.. first I only wanted "sad" poems and "sad" songs.. but I read on and on and soon I found joy in sweet poems and loving poems and fun poems.. and so with each read.. at least for a little while, I felt my spirits lift..

and then to read these kind, encouraging words from each of you... to know they are meant with sincerity... that helps so much too...

it is getting easier, and though I may not, ever, know all the why's.. at least I'm learning to get past the pain and learning slowly to just let go...

Bless u all.. your hearts are as beautiful as your poetry

You all shine!!!

Hugz and lots of love,

Pepper
"A poem is the very image of life expressed in its eternal truth."
Percy Bysshe Shelley

SEA

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Member Seraphic

since 2000-01-18

Posts 22676
with you

5 posted 2002-02-04 04:47 PM

"And I want to die
All I do is cry
But I won't die ... no I won't
Though it's killing me
I will go on
Because I'm strong
Though for the life of me
I cannot really see
A reason why
And I just want to know..."
P~
the strength that flows from your words is incredible.......*hugs*

Mistletoe Angel

Member Empyrean

since 2000-12-17

Posts 32816
Portland, Oregon

6 posted 2002-02-04 05:40 PM

(tears fall down my cheeks) I can feel such sadness behind these words, sweet Lavenia, my heart cries out to you, for I believe such questions like these can be so bewildering to answer ourselves! (BIG HUGGGSSSSSSS) We are always here for you, sweet friend, write out your thoughts to us, for it helps and we will always be here to offer you compassion to help you heal! We all love you so much, sweet friend, my prayers are with you always! You have such a beautiful heart, sweet Lavenia, thank you for sharing!

May love and light always shine upon you!

Love,
Noah Eaton

Greeneyes

Member Rara Avis

since 2000-09-09

Posts 9903
In Your Poetic Mind

7 posted 2002-02-04 06:35 PM

peppermint35~

Yes I do indeed understand this,though the answers may never come, eventually time will heal, and strength wont seem so hard....PEACE...

Lauren~

Step through the
barrier of my mind,
enter my soul,
feel my desire,
let my eyes guide you
into the shadows
of my heart

[This message has been edited by Greeneyes (02-04-2002 06:35 PM).]

N orth Carolina Girl
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since 2001-12-04

Posts 962
NC,USA

8 posted 2002-02-04 07:26 PM

Pepper,I sincerely hope things get better for you.I hope the next poem you post can be a happier one.

Juanita

"always have a smile on your face it makes people wonder what you`re up to:

Enchantress
Member Empyrean

since 2001-08-14

Posts 35113
Canada eh.

9 posted 2002-02-04 07:31 PM

Pepper, this is full of so much pain.
Please continue to write it out....
~hugs, Nancy~

~Time has cast a spell on you,
So you won't ever forget me~

peppermint35
Senior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 1106
Texas, USA

10 posted 2002-02-05 01:29 AM

Sue, I'm sure working to get there

Noah, it's getting better, I promise.. sometimes slowly, but definitely surely.

Lauren, the strength is there.. and with so much support, I'm finding it easier to tap ..

Juanita.. I hope so too... perhaps 4 therapies are enough.. u think?

Thank you Nancy.. it does work for me.. better than any other therapy..

Pepper
"A poem is the very image of life expressed in its eternal truth."
Percy Bysshe Shelley

Bill Charles
Member Patricius

since 2000-07-11

Posts 10619
highways, & byways, for now

11 posted 2002-02-05 02:29 AM

Pepper - I'm reading words of hurt in your writings. I've found by writing them out it does help. I know the feel of silence, and I don't understand it either. Hope things will get better for you...

BC

Kethry
Member Rara Avis

since 2000-07-29

Posts 9082
Victoria Australia

12 posted 2002-02-05 08:54 AM

Pepper, sometimes there are no answers just faith and hope and time. *HuG*
Kethry

Here in the midst of my lonely abyss, a single joy I find...your presence in my mind. Unknown

Seymour Tabin
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since 1999-07-07

Posts 31720
Tamarac Fla

13 posted 2002-02-05 09:00 AM

Peppermint,
Nice write, enjoyed the read and I'm sure things will work out.

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