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Forever December

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Janet Marie
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0 posted 12-02-2001 12:03 AM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to Submit your Poem to Passions  View IP for Janet Marie

**repost from Dec 2000 at the request of a friend,
and because this weekends blue moon lets me know its time.





~Forever December~

in loving memory of DeVante' ... always.


Tonight I felt you ... felt you move inside of me,
felt your restlessness in my soul.
As I sat beneath the silver moon
the November chill made me tremble,
yet, the cold made me feel alive.
My own warm tears felt estranged on my cheeks.
Knees pulled up to my chest, arms locked around them,
embraced by my ache of missing you.
Eyes to ebony skies ... searching the stars,
there is that one that shines brighter
with an emerald spark--a jade glow,
and I just know.

I catch my breath and hold it in ...
my lungs wanting to explode.
Sometimes I want to scream.
Scream from a place so deep inside
that even I've never been there alone.
Sometimes I feel like I could bleed forever,
bleed out of my skin ... bleed from my eyes.
Crying's no longer enough,
there aren't enough tears to release me.
And I cant write enough poetry either,
there's not enough rhyme to purge this.
Besides, my words never do you justice,
and tonight ... neither does the moon.

And I know where all this is coming from.
As the calendar counts off the days ...
screaming wont stop this time's arrival.
Neither can tears, nor poetry ...
for the seasons have nearly come full circle,
as the earth quietly ... constantly keeps time.
Each new day's offering of golden sunrises ...
of rose washed sunsets and a phasing blue moon ...
all serve to remind.
And the memories all come flooding back ...
My first winter with you ... learning to accept it would also be my last.
The way you prepared me to open my heart --
to let go of you ... to let you fly.
The promise to be the wind beneath your wings.

And I remember the day I saw time ... actually witnessed its passage.
That winter's day in the clocktower square.
The millennium clock counting off the seconds,
the minutes, till the years end.
I can still feel the way my knees went weak
and my chest drew in tight.
And I remember thinking ... if I held that breath forever ...
maybe I could make time stand still.

But angels and butterflies aren't held to mortal time.

And just like I had to let go of that breath,
I soon had to let go of you.
So now November again gives way to December
and I see your shadow there.
And I wonder ...
does anyone else question why we feel the need to measure pain?
Why do we mark our losses in the passage of time?
Each passing day weighs out equal.
One hour, one week, one month, one year,
the memory is just as treasured ...
and it's only those moments that matter.

Should the stars all fall from the sky ...
should the moon forget to shine,
let the winds of change blow ...
let the tides wash away the sands of time.
I wont ever let this go, you will never fade in me.
And as time marks the moment ... the night you took flight,
each of us who lived in your light will engrave again it in our hearts.
Still I know ... there will always be that moment etched in time,
as if--like me ... destiny held it's breath ...
and it will be forever December.


Janet Marie


~~~~~~~~


"And I can remember ... Forever December.
The center of dying, the heart of the pain.
The rose in the bottle, the thorns in the bottom
The stars surround me, the cold astounds me"

~Tabitha's Secret~



he said ... "dont cry" ...
said "it only hurts forever ... and all we have is time."

~Tabitha's Secret~

[This message has been edited by Janet Marie (edited 12-02-2001).]

© Copyright 2001 Janet Marie - All Rights Reserved
RSWells
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1 posted 12-02-2001 12:17 AM       View Profile for RSWells   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for RSWells

The blue moon on the blue page
the heart's swoon and the tears rage.        
This write is a lonely hunter
and this month has just begun.
Seeing it's a repost I pray the mood has lightened.
Kit McCallum
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2 posted 12-02-2001 12:29 AM       View Profile for Kit McCallum   Email Kit McCallum   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Kit McCallum

"the November chill made me tremble,
yet, the cold made me feel alive.
My own warm tears felt estranged on my cheeks.
Knees pulled up to my chest, arms locked around them,
embraced by my ache of missing you."

"And I know where all this is coming from.
As the calendar counts off the days ...
screaming wont stop this time's arrival.
Neither can tears, nor poetry ...
for the seasons have nearly come full circle,
as the earth quietly ... constantly keeps time."

"I can still feel the way my knees went weak
and my chest drew in tight.
And I remember thinking ... if I held that breath forever ...
maybe I could make time stand still."

Oh Janet Marie ... no one writes emotion the way you do my friend. This is truly an amazing write. You drew me entirely into this, from beginning through to the final verse  with your vivid and powerful imagery. "One hour, one week, one month, one year" ... although time passes JM ... our memories do not ... you have captured this so exquisitely. A beautifully flowing verse straight from the depths of your tender heart. Just lovely.

Best wishes and big hugs  
/Kit

[This message has been edited by Kit McCallum (edited 12-02-2001).]

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3 posted 12-02-2001 12:45 AM       View Profile for Daemonyin   Email Daemonyin   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Daemonyin

There is nothing I can say that could do this poem justice....  So I'll just say...
Beautiful.
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4 posted 12-02-2001 12:54 AM       View Profile for Greeneyes   Email Greeneyes   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Greeneyes

"there aren't enough tears to release me.
And I know where all this is coming from.
As the calendar counts off the days ...
And I remember the day I saw time ... actually witnessed its passage.
destiny held it's breath ...

But angels and butterflies aren't held to mortal time.""
Janet Marie

this made my heart ache, from a deep side I havent wanted to go....for a long time, your poetry and words from the heart do that too me....I cried with the first line, and by the end well.....I love ya for this, and for always sharing your heart so openly.....love did certainly touch you in life, and believe me its so hard to find.....it really is a once in a lifetime..(I know you know that)...our life time awaits....

Lauren~


[This message has been edited by Greeneyes (edited 12-02-2001).]

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5 posted 12-02-2001 01:37 AM       View Profile for Midnitesun   Email Midnitesun   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Midnitesun

"Sometimes I want to scream.
Scream from a place so deep inside
that even I've never been there alone."

I have heard that scream.
So much to feel inside this poem, emotions covering this blue page. Poetry to save and savor.
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6 posted 12-02-2001 02:59 AM       View Profile for JamesMichael   Email JamesMichael   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for JamesMichael

This is from a warm and tender place in your heart Janet...James
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7 posted 12-02-2001 03:07 AM       View Profile for Parker   Email Parker   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Parker's Home Page   View IP for Parker

Janet, I read this through tonight... it flows so beautifully. I'm sure I felt the same the first time I read it, but it just hit me. You have a way with words sometimes that just hit to the heart completely.  

Glad you reposted it.

Back on the pedistals for you browneye's.  

Parker

[This message has been edited by Parker (edited 12-02-2001).]

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8 posted 12-02-2001 05:07 AM       View Profile for Irish Rose   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Irish Rose

someone else understands the very thing I've been in torment with....loss.
God, this is beautiful

Kathleen (Kay)
"When red-haired girls scamper like roses over the rain-green grass, and the sun drips honey."
Laurie Lee

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So many memorable lines...so many reasons to remember them...

Sometimes, our heart writes a personal classic that for good reason, needs to be shared among the many.  I hope this becomes a seasonal re-poster, for all of the reasons that it is so special to you, and us.

Hugs to you...
Seymour Tabin
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10 posted 12-02-2001 07:49 AM       View Profile for Seymour Tabin   Email Seymour Tabin   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Seymour Tabin

Janet Marie,
You are so many things to me and so inturned in my bones that you gave me a wrench. You have oppened my Pandora's box of feelings with your magic key that even raspbery tea will not quench. I sorrow for your sorrow.
But would borrow from tomorrow and ask you please come with me, to the edge of the sea and the valleys of my green. We will hold each others hands and make a wish upon eternity. Yours will be yours and mine will be mine. We will sip a little wine and send it into time. To race into the touchline of tomorrow. From which we wish to borrow.
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11 posted 12-02-2001 08:56 AM       View Profile for Nan   Email Nan   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Nan's Home Page   View IP for Nan

This is a wonderful piece, JM...

I like this part best
quote:

And I remember the day I saw time ... actually witnessed its passage.
That winter's day in the clocktower square.
The millennium clock counting off the seconds,
the minutes, till the years end.
I can still feel the way my knees went weak
and my chest drew in tight.
And I remember thinking ... if I held that breath forever ...
maybe I could make time stand still.


Wouldn't it be interesting if we could in fact choose a special moment for ourselves and make time stand still ... each of us at the moment of our own choice... Whatever would we choose?... I'd have a difficult time choosing - Maybe that's why we can't...
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12 posted 12-02-2001 09:18 AM       View Profile for Enchantress   Email Enchantress   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Enchantress

Janet Marie, This is just such an emotional write, I am at a loss as to what to say.  I realized toward the end of reading this piece that I was holding my breath....your writing does this to me.  Incredible feelings described in this one.  
Take care, hugs, Nancy.

"A dream is a wish your heart makes..."

Janet Marie
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13 posted 12-02-2001 09:48 AM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Janet Marie

Richard ... thank you for that lovely verse ...  the mood like the moon comes and goes, with the 2 year "anniversary" coming up the marking of time brings it to mind...but time does indeed heal some of the blue.
Some things never leave us ... but then ... some things never should.  

Kit-girlie ... you humble me...thank you seems like too little to say for this wonderfully complimentary reply. There is such power in the written word ...
we see that here everyday...both in the poetry that we discover ourself in and the replies that touch us. Thank you for touching me with yours  

Daemonyin ... the intend of your words is taken as given ... and your "beautiful" does a wonderful justice...thank you so much...and again...Welcome to Poetry Land.  

Lauren .... I know--you know--we know, and  though I wish no one had to lose someone they love, there is quiet comfort in knowing you understand and that is something that means much to me. Yes...he was that once in a lifetime love, and I wouldnt have it any other way. Thank you sweet poet  

Kacy ... sometimes we just have to "scream it out" even if only poetically.
Thank you the understanding and the kind words. Its always an honor to know someone saves our work for future reads  

SBJ ... thank you for the warm and tender reply ... those words come to mind when seeing your name  

P-man ... and you have that same way with your words ... this generous reply proves that   thank you my sweet tease friend ... for the pedestals and smiles  

Kathleen ... thank you dear for the "beautiful." As we have found here so many times in other peoples words...there are many who have been where we have and understand. As I said above...its quiet comfort knowing we are not alone.  

Kari ... thank you for the hugs and understanding ... as long as my muse wont give me any new ones..I am the repost moth   but yes...I know what youre saying...
and I thank you my friend for knowing why this one is special to me...but most of all for its being special to you.  

Sy-babes...my goodness ... what can I say to such a wonderful reply.
You humble and honor me till Im speechless(but not winkieless) *L*  
Thank you for that endearing, beautiful verse and invitation to fly. You are my morning sun and the raspberry in my tea.   All that you share lets me know there is a tomorrow to wish for. Thank you for being my sweet Stinky  

Nan ... thank you for sharing the part you liked best...that part of this poem is very important to me and I hoped I wrote it so the impact of it's revelations came across ....that day's realizations is something I still am learing to accept.
Your exactly right...its not something that should be in our power, because we couldnt ever choose. Thank you so much  

Nancy ...thank you!! taking your breath away is a wonderful compliment!! *L*  Thank you so much for this gracious reply..sometimes words arent needed.  

thank you all for these touching replies.
I grow in your light.
Thank you to my special someone for requesting I share this one again...
and for it being special to you.
Love to Poetry Land
jm
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14 posted 12-02-2001 11:48 AM       View Profile for Martie   Email Martie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Martie's Home Page   View IP for Martie

Janet Marie--Big hugs for you always, especially in this month of remember.

and so I just know
that love never dies
and that souls hold all the candles
and they are the kind
you canít blow out

love you, girlie
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15 posted 12-02-2001 12:44 PM       View Profile for Startime   Email Startime   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Startime's Home Page   View IP for Startime

*sigh* the pure magic of a blue moon woven in words that leave me in awe. Your words have the same affect as gazing at the blue moon. Total emotion fills the soul. This poem goes into my library to be shared with all my friends. **hugs** I love it.  

Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams.

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16 posted 12-02-2001 01:44 PM       View Profile for Temptress   Email Temptress   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Temptress

Your power always amazes me, Lady. I love this! I think I'll let my husband read it. Years ago he lost his Grandmother (who he was close to) on Dec. 1st which is his birthday also.

Your storm of assumption feeds anger I am calm enough to hold inside. Don't pretend to know me if you've never put stretched out your heart with since

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17 posted 12-02-2001 05:48 PM       View Profile for SpitFire   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for SpitFire

~Oh J, *sigh* J,...this poetry has coated me. I just picked my head up off of the folded arms on my desk, (which happened after reading) to try to gather up a reply. But I'm so over taken by the honesty and depth in this and the amazing way that you spread such emotion. I offer hugs and warmth and will. Thank you for sharing you. *Peace for your heart.

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Janet Marie, this is just a beautiful peace

December is a good month to remember

HUGS Titia

A rose is a rose is a rose...I guess...
Want to use the pics on my website? Just let me know. http://communities.msn.com/Titiasplace/http://comm

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19 posted 12-02-2001 06:44 PM       View Profile for Songbird   Email Songbird   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Songbird's Home Page   View IP for Songbird

I know these feelings. it has been 7 years for me. One never forgets, the sadness has its ebb and flow.
Janet Marie
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20 posted 12-02-2001 08:44 PM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Janet Marie

thank you all or these touching replies...
I wanted to say thanks for now until I can get back here and answer each as I  did above.
Late this afternoon I came down with that wicked flu going around that all in my house had last week...so i guess it was my turn.
I'll be back when I can type with out the fever blurring my mothy vision  
thanks guys...Im gonna read a few of you and go to bed early  
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21 posted 12-02-2001 08:50 PM       View Profile for Marina   Email Marina   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Marina

I have to thank your friend for this repost.  One of my favourites from you and you know how I love it when DaVante pays us a visit.  X-Mas is just around the corner and I wish I could spend it in such a wonderful place as DeVante and my Dad will.  

Me

It is a blessing to have wings for words and passion in pen.


Marina Crossley


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22 posted 12-02-2001 09:08 PM       View Profile for Joe Lamando   Email Joe Lamando   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Joe Lamando

Well, I'm breathless!  A passionate write, for sure.  Thank you for sharing.

Joe Lamando
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23 posted 12-02-2001 09:29 PM       View Profile for Tracey   Email Tracey   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Tracey

Wow, what an incredible piece of poetry. I can just feel the loss, the longing in this one. I donít know who it was written for, but it strongly brings back memories of loss to me, one through death, and one not. This is simply outstanding.

If she who dies with the most toys wins, then can I have some toy boys please?

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24 posted 12-02-2001 09:58 PM       View Profile for Eloise   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Eloise

I missed this the first time, but glad that I had a chance to read it this time.  This has such emotion and tenderness in it.  Thanks for reposting it. -- Beautiful.
 
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