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It's not ok
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It's not ok |
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The Lady of Shallot Senior Member
since 2001-10-03
Posts 818USA |
(I'm not even sure this qualifies as a poem!)  When I was a child I always said, "it's ok" even when it wasn't. I never revealed sting or distress. All of my emotions were kept in check, discarded as if they never mattered. Emotions never dissolve, they live inside need release where do they go? Sometimes they explode into open palms that hold your sobs in the blackest night and nothing comforts. Nothing. I love people, love them, small children, old people, I gave to them, and neglected myself, I tended to their emotions, what they wanted and what they needed. Sounds so noble. It's stupid! Inside, where words move and form I write forgiveness to myself before I ask others for it. I need to forgive myself. For not being enough, for being too much, for anger, troubling fear and discontent, There is a gentleness missing. Oh, I have given it to others and depleted my own resolve. And that's not ok. It's not ok to write beautiful words that inspire and not ok to design a page displaying a portrait of a wonderful person when you yourself have failed miserably. And yes, I have failed many times. I probably will again. I know I will. That's ok as long as I know I cannot neglect this woman who cried out to me, me and I didn't listen to her. Well, I'm listening to her now and she and I? We are so very tired. So tired. But the words, the words are all bottled up inside. So they will be written. If you feel this way you are not alone! Take someone's hand, go on, take it and allow them to wipe your tears away. Please don't drive those away who care for you, oh you will still heal, yes, but slowly...slowly. No one can be ok, alone. No one. artwork by Pablo Picasso -befriend yourself and you will never be alone- [This message has been edited by The Lady of Shallot (edited 10-16-2001).] |
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Sunshine
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Member Empyrean
since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Not a poem? Ah, but wonderful free verse.... |
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Nightshade 
since 2001-08-31
Posts 13962just out of reach |
Lady of Shallot, Oh my goodness! This is just so like myself, and probably so many others as well. Sometimes we give so much, we lose ourselves. Maybe that is why we love poetry so much. We can rid ourselves of pain, loss, rejection, guilt. You name it. Just remember....there is no such thing as failure....only results. You have done very well with this piece, very well. Chris Life is not measured by breaths you take, but by moments that take your breath away. |
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Enchantress Member Empyrean
since 2001-08-14
Posts 35113Canada eh. |
That's ok as long as I know I cannot neglect this woman who cried out to me, me and I didn't listen to her. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Dear Lady...please listen to your inner child who is crying out to you. I love free verse, and use it most of the time...who said poetry has to rhyme? ~warm hugs, Nancy~ ~I've loved you forever, in lifetimes before.~ |
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The Lady of Shallot Senior Member
since 2001-10-03
Posts 818USA |
thank you for those wonderful words. Once I had a bad experience online and I don't like to use my real name, but my confirmation name is Anna, and I always loved it. oh yes, Nancy, the inner child....that's who I want back! Thank you all! -befriend yourself and you will never be alone- [This message has been edited by The Lady of Shallot (edited 10-16-2001).] |
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Startime Member Ascendant
since 2000-10-03
Posts 5918Canada |
I love to write in free verse.....and this one is so touching. I think you have spoken from the heart of many of us here. Very well done. BRAVO!!!! Love I leave with you whether it is in your life now or yet the essense of your dreams. |
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Midnitesun
since 2001-05-18
Posts 28647Gaia |
'No one can be ok, alone. No one.' I agree. And you must take time to take care of your own heart, before it is strong enough to give it to others. |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
"Please don't drive those away who care for you." I have done this myself and feel like the reason I did it was because I could not believe anyone could truly care for me...James |
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The Lady of Shallot Senior Member
since 2001-10-03
Posts 818USA |
Startime, thank you and I love rhyme but recently enjoy the freedom of this type of writing also. Mtnitesun: Thank you and yes, that is very, very true. James Michael, We are all worthy of being loved. Once we realize that, true joy begins and we can accept love and not question it. Please remember that. Thank you for replying. -befriend yourself and you will never be alone- |
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Sven
since 1999-11-23
Posts 14937East Lansing, MI USA |
your words echo true my friend. . . it all starts inside. . . always. . . wonderfully done. . . from the heart. . . ------------------------------------------------------ To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world. |
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Tracey Member Elite
since 2001-08-29
Posts 2808where insanity meets breeding |
This is so heartfelt. Yes, many of us have felt like this at different times. I always find that friends are the best when I'm feeling down on myself. They remind me of my good points, and when I see myself surrounded by so many wonderful people, I realize that I can't be too bad  Don't beat yourself up about the mistakes you may have made. Mistakes are what makes us stronger, and brings us to where we are today. Take care of yourself and live life as best you can. And cut yourself some slack sweet lady If she who dies with the most toys wins, then can I have some toy boys please? |
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Duncan Member Ascendant
since 2001-08-07
Posts 5455 |
Emotions never dissolve, they live inside need release where do they go? If this isn't a poem then I'm not a reader of poetry. This is simply one of the best I've ever read! I mean that, sincerely. |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
This was a heartfelt cry that many could have voiced. You know this child now, and are listening so it is never to late. Your last lines are the best advise given in this wise writing, - write out the emotions bottled up somewhere, if not poetry, on a paper bag, but write them, own them, and feel them. This was a fantastic healing and feeling piece. ~I always have time to listen to someone talking from their heart~ |
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The Lady of Shallot Senior Member
since 2001-10-03
Posts 818USA |
Sven thank you very much! Tracey, I hope others can relate to this, that’s why I wrote it! Thank you! Duncan, thank you, I believe you! Mysteria, oh, I hope so, I know so! thank you! -befriend yourself and you will never be alone- |
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