I am leaving my last post with all of you. I am leaving Passions. Writing is my only get-away, my relief, and I will still do that. Just I will not be here anymore. I am really going through a rough time right now. I feel like I have lost my place in the world and am unsure of where I go from here. I have so much to deal with and I feel so lonely. So, why leave? Maybe this way I will do what it is I need to do, my purpose. Thank you all for being my friends...I will miss you.
My Last Walk In The Rain
I'm not sure if I should cry or smile at where I've been
Do I look back at the wind and sigh in a lonely kind of way?
Or should I walk on feeling how for a short time I had it all?
Or do I stumble carrying sadness as I walk away?...
Listen and I will tell you of where the roses never die
Where a turquoise sea and a lavender moon lies
I witnessed silver meadows and long golden streets
And, stood in the blue where the sky and the mountains meet...
Oh, and if you think beautiful is an ocean at the break of day
Or when the sounds of the waves then rise and fall
Then you should have been with me when I danced along the waters top
And, I never even owned a pair of wings at all...
I've been places many only wish they had been
But, for the life of me I don't know why it all had to end
Do I smile at the chance I was at least given in life?
Or do I cry for what was taken away one night?...
I know I will always walk on one road and it's this one
For there is no other road to take
Just now I will have to remember what it's like to wake in the night
And, remember how lucky I was with every step I make...
This road now is of the old one just memories divide it
And, maybe what lies ahead will be my place in the sun
Maybe when I can walk again on colorful stones
My journey won't be of a tear-filled one...
If I pass you there and I do not look the same
Know that from here on ahead hope is my new name
I don't know how to wave to you all without crying you see
But, I don't know how to walk anymore and be the best I can be...
If I cannot be in this world and do what my purpose is
Then I must move on until I can find new strength
Please don't think for a minute that I didn't know love personally
I felt it, I did, from all of my friends...
I hope I have touched but just one tiny part of you
I hope my heart and my effort remains
So, understand if I feel I have let the world down
For tonight I've had my last walk in the rain...
The Sun Shines
Not On Us, But In Us
The River Flows Not Past,
But Through Us