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Is This All There Is?
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Is This All There Is? |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada 
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Is This All There Is? I ponder far too often what has brought me to this place, I find myself in endless loops, alone while questions race. I do not understand my purpose. Why do I exist? How did I come to be? What is the lesson in all this? I watch the insignificance of daily life unfurl, Forsaken to the sidelines, looking in upon the world. I see the plastic people move about their daily lives, Their motions seem mechanical, their actions feel contrived. I find I try to blend into this awkward mortal realm, Performing for an audience … my senses overwhelm; Synthetic shell in turmoil - face is painted, smiling bright, While hiding my frustrations as I slowly lose the fight. An emptiness has followed me relentlessly it seems, A void that swallows all my passion … all my hopes and dreams; It's heaviness unyielding, builds restrictions and confines, To keep me in this self-inflicted prison of my mind. Surrounded by my chaos, isolated by my fears, The questions haunt my peace of mind, dissolving me to tears. I wonder if it's only me … a flaw in my design, Unable to enjoy the simple pleasures others find. Incapable of breaking free, suppressing what I can, I play the part of someone else … I smother who I am; I'm stifled by the walls I've built, and slowly suffocate … Please tell me … is this all there is? Is this to be my fate? /Kit McCallum [This message has been edited by Kit McCallum (edited 08-13-2001).] |
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EagleOne Member Elite
since 2000-03-07
Posts 2829Between a laugh and a tear... |
You are not the only one my friend, and yes, there is more! "Let me pierce the realm of glamour |
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Sunshine
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since 1999-06-25
Posts 63354Listening to every heart |
Good questions, but I think you already have the answers....and I am glad you took a little time out for yourself to compose this one! |
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SEA 
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since 2000-01-18
Posts 22676with you |
Kit~ this is fantastic, so many of us can relate..... "Incapable of breaking free, suppressing what I can, I play the part of someone else … I smother who I am;" you take care of you  |
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Jeffrey Carter
since 2000-04-08
Posts 2367State of constant confusion! |
"Is this all there is?" A question I have often pondered, and yet i still strive to find the truth. Will we ever know the answer? Only time will tell! |
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Cerenity Member Elite
since 2000-02-16
Posts 2637Escondido-California |
Hi Kit, You simply amaze me with your mind and your words, you have caught on paper what I have thought and done for so long and the answer I do not have, I do know you are very busy of late and I believe you should for sure take as much time out for your self as you can, cause you are WORTH IT!! best wishes sent to you from me, Love, Cerenity "God doesn't have to be reminded that we exist. |
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Rex Allen McCoy Member Elite
since 2000-01-30
Posts 2863Sippin a Timmy's in London |
Thoughts, I'm sure we all ponder from time to time I'm attaching a poem i found many years ago, that speaks from similar thoughts, It offers no answers, but provides a slightly different perspective ... ... author Unknown ... ~~~ Life passes along with an armfull of things Which Helter Skelter to mortals she flings And some her tokens are pleasant to gain While others are heavily freighted with pain But hoping for pleasures some gather up woes For the richest and poorest must take what she throws ~ Some of us fancy that life should be kind and toss us the joys we are eager to find She has them in plenty on men to bestow For others got blessings we're eager to know But life dosen't ask what we wish as she goes Be it pleasure or grief we must take what she throws ~ With sorrow and pleasure with hopes and with fears with comfort and pain and with smiles and with tears Life passes along and she scatters them all Nor heeds just on whom or just where they may fall And rich men and poor men and subjects and kings must take as their portion what ever she flings ~ So wise is the man who builds strength for his care and faith for the sorrows all mortals must bear Who looks not to life for her pleasures alone But knows that with joys many heartaches are thrown Fools are ready for laughter but down through the years Only strong men and wise men are ready for tears ~~~ [This message has been edited by Rex Allen McCoy (edited 08-13-2001).] |
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Honeybee Member Ascendant
since 1999-12-26
Posts 5372Ontario, CANADA |
Oh, Kit, this is so powerfully expressed. Your talent awes me, and I relate all too well to your words - if only you knew. My library must have this, in fact, I'm also printing it out~ Take care, Melissa~ "Poetry is not an opinion expressed... |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
An emptiness has followed me relentlessly it seems, A void that swallows all my passion … all my hopes and dreams; It's heaviness unyielding, builds restrictions and confines, To keep me in this self-inflicted prison of my mind. Surrounded by my chaos, isolated by my fears, The questions haunt my peace of mind, dissolving me to tears. I wonder if it's only me … a flaw in my design, Unable to enjoy the simple pleasures others find. Incapable of breaking free, suppressing what I can, I play the part of someone else … I smother who I am; I'm stifled by the walls I've built, and slowly suffocate … Please tell me … is this all there is? Is this to be my fate? =============================== So that WAS you in my mirror this morn  your rhymes rock Kit-girlie... and the emotional purge of this hits close to home and plays the heartstrings... and as Sy and Lizzie (wisdom and grace) said to me on my purge.... The answer lies inside of you(me).... we just have to be able to look that deep without fearing the reflection we are going to see. Write it out Kit...its part of the process.  meI know no one is to blame |
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Marge Tindal
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Kit~ So nice to have you treat us to another well-composed piece~ You blend just fine gal~ *Hugs* ~*Marge*~ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ |
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illusion Member
since 2001-06-19
Posts 296 |
You ask the questions asked by many - but do so with finesse in a fantastic, flawless poem. Beautiful! |
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Martie
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since 1999-09-21
Posts 28049California |
Kit--I think all of us feel this way from time to time..the trick is to be open for the lessons that abound in adversity. Wonderfully written poem! |
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JamesMichael Member Empyrean
since 1999-11-16
Posts 33336Kapolei, Hawaii, USA |
I usually feel like this after a failed relationship. I want to love but get no love in return...so then if nobody wants me or needs me what is my purpose...I'm kindof in one of those moods right now...James |
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Mysteria
since 2001-03-07
Posts 18328British Columbia, Canada |
A fantastic piece so many can identify with Kit, and the answers are always inside aren't they? Great job of this one. To see real beauty ~ close your eyes and listen |
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Balladeer
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since 1999-06-05
Posts 25505Ft. Lauderdale, Fl USA |
in the words of a great song.... "If that's all there is, my friend, Then let's go dancing... We'll break out the booze and have a ball if that's all there is..... I've got the booze, Kit. Get those dancing shoes on.... |
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CMGrimm Senior Member
since 2000-02-14
Posts 685USA |
I really like this one... chris Never be a carbon copy of anybody...make your own impressions. - ANON. |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
***Do you know how much I appreciate each and every one of you? I hope so! Many {{{Hugs}}} to you all, for being the wonderful group of poet friends that you are. Hugs, hugs, hugs*** EagleOne: I'm glad I'm not the only one, but sad at the same time … I'll watch for more, thanks EagleOne. Hugs. Karilea: You're right Karilea, it did feel good to take time to write this one out, though I'm afraid I don't have the answers as yet. Hugs. SEA: I'll try Susan … thank you so much for these kind thoughts, much appreciated. Hugs. Jeffrey: I hope time hurries up Jeffrey, some days it's just seems so frustrating. Thank you for these thoughts. Hugs. Cerenity: Thank you so very much for the encouraging words Cerenity. I've been feeling pretty down lately, and this means a lot to me. Hugs to you. Rex: Thank you for these lovely thoughts and words Rex, it's a wonderful perspective, and I appreciate you taking the time to copy this here for me, I really did enjoy it. Much appreciated. Big hugs. Melissa: I'm glad you enjoyed Melissa, and thank you for these kind words, I'm very grateful to you. Hugs. Janet Marie: We're on both sides of the looking glass again JM? If so, I can't think of a lovelier reflection … thank you for being such a sweetheart. Many hugs gator gal. Marge: Wish I could blend my work and play a little better Marge, some days the work side is just too overwhelming. Many hugs to you in return. Illusion: Thank you for these lovely thought Illusion, they are very much appreciated. Hugs. Martie: This is beautiful advice Martie, and I will try to remember this. Thank you for this, I'm grateful to you. Many hugs. James: I understand this mood James, and I'm sorry you're feeling the same. I hope you'll soon be happy again. Hugs. Mysteria: I think they are inside Sharon, but I think my biggest problem is that I won't listen … thanks for the kind words (and the beautiful pictures the other day … you are an amazing and incredible artist). Hugs to you. Balladeer: I can't place the song, but I heard the message. I'm a cheap date Michael, no fancy liquor, just a Labatt's Blue Light will do fine. Dancing shoes are ready. Many hugs to you sweet poet. CMGrimm: Thanks so much Chris, I'm glad you enjoyed this, and I'm grateful. Hugs. Much appreciation to all, /Kit [This message has been edited by Kit McCallum (edited 08-14-2001).] |
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vlraynes Member Rara Avis
since 2000-07-25
Posts 8229Somewhere... out there... |
Kit- I always love it when I find one of your treasures to read. It certainly can be difficult at times to find that balance, and not lose yourself in the everyday workings of life. I hope you're able to find the answers you're looking for. Thanks for taking the time to pen this one and share it with us. Hugs, ~vicky "...until you have read the verse on his |
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howpeculiar Member
since 2000-12-12
Posts 56 |
Oh, yes, feeling this muchly at the moment. If I were to have the strength to pen something of my thoughts the past few days? This would be it. You're not alone by far, Ms. Kit, though wouldn't it be somehow a relief to know you were sometimes? Days pass in and out, and often OVER us, and the mundane and the struggles creep up from behind and catch you when you don't expect it... but you find that the frustration fades instead of yourself. You'll get through your down spot, we all do... it’s only a matter of time, will, and perspective. And if it’s not too presumptuous? *HUGS* There seems to be a mighty need for those lately… |
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Denise
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since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Fantastic writing, Kit! Yep, I'm sure we've all been there! |
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vandana
since 1999-10-22
Posts 10463USA |
enjoy |
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shadow of the fall Member
since 2001-08-13
Posts 83Indiana |
Well, I wouldn't say this is I didn't mean it...you have talent. I mean real talent. This is well done. |
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RSWells Member Elite
since 2001-06-17
Posts 2533 |
For all that's all there is, though we are all alone...together. "Oh what a tangled web we weave when first we practice to decieve" |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Great big {{{hugs}}} to everyone for these beautiful thoughts and encouragement, thank you! Vicky: Awww, thank you Vicky … this means so much to me, I very much appreciate these lovely thoughts. Hugs to you. Howpeculiar: You're so very right … though at times it's good to know we're not "alone", it is a relief to know we are sometimes … and days running "over" us? You've captured it perfectly, not too presumptuous at all, thank you for these understanding thoughts Howpeculiar (love your pen name by the way). Big Hugs to you. Denise: Thanks so much Denise for understanding … I'm sure we've all been there time and again … poetic souls seem to be the most vulnerable, don't they? Many hugs to you. Vandana: Thank you for enjoying Vandana, I'm very appreciative. Hugs to you. shadow of the fall: Thank you so very much Shadow, what a lovely and encouraging things to say, much appreciated. Hugs. RSWells: Ahhh, beautifully said RSWells, thank you so much for understanding, I am very grateful. Many hugs. Much appreciation to all, /Kit |
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Mark Bohannan Member Rara Avis
since 2000-06-21
Posts 7269In the winds of Cherokee song |
When it comes to sharing a feeling in poetic grace and beauty ... not many can do it as well as you. Wonderfully written and the you know I love the rhyme but what I like most about your works is that I constantly learn to be better myself through them. Now as for the ? ... NOT HARDLY!!!!!!!!!!! If this was all there is then there would be NO CHALLENGE and we both know that just couldn't possibly be!!!!!! Since I know you are SOOOOOOOOOOO ready for one, here you go. A Sonnet, from the eyes of a teen about the first kiss from her first love. There you go. Have fun. |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Ah Mark ... I hope you know how much I appreciate you, and have missed you. Thank you so much for these beautiful sentiments, and as always ... for challenging me to better "myself". Funny, but I was terrified of the day you would choose a Sonnet, LOL ... I only tried one once, and didn't get the daDUMS right. I hope I've done you proud this time my friend. Here you go (I popped it into Adult, although it was likely tame enough for Open, LOL) /main/forumdisplay.cgi?action=displayprivate&number=5&topic=002556 Much appreciation and many hugs to you dear friend, /Kit |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
Kit.... Mark asked me to reply for him... hes not sure if he will get on puter today... first of all he says thank you for always endulging him and his challenges... and he was impressed how fast you met it... and he LOVED your sonnet and said it was perfect and was soft and romantic... (didnt have to be posted in adult) and he says the fact that you did write it so quickly must mean sonnets had no fear for you and your gift for cadence... we knew you'd make it look easy away cool Kit-gator...you are the best.  Beautiful write of a first kiss and young love love ya lady Mark and JM Feels like Im dancin with truth and wisdom |
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tracie66 Member Elite
since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713Australia |
Hi Kit my friend You have written this with such emotion, emotions that we have all felt I'm sure from time to time...I hope all is well hon, keep on writing it's a great escape and outlet. excellent write ~HUGS~ Tracie Love is the life of the soul... |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Thank you JM, and please send my hugs to Mark. I enjoy his challenges so. He keeps me on my toes, and trying new things .... I love that. I had to run into Nan's Poetry Workshop on a mad search for her Sonnet explanations again, LOL, then "beat it out" with fingers and toes, ROFL. Much appreciation and a whole bunch of hugs to you both, /Kit |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
Hi Tracie ... you must have been responding while I was typing above. Thanks so much for the kind words and lovely thoughts. I'm doing OK ... trying to make time for poetry amongst a heavy workload ... but you're so very right, poetry is a wonderful escape, and I'd be lost without it. Thanks for enjoying, many hugs! Much appreciation, /Kit |
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MissGypsiNess Junior Member
since 2001-07-02
Posts 21MyWay - The HighWay |
Yet each insignificant day unfurls to be compiled with all the rest - to the ultimate summation of a very significant lifetime... This is beautifully done, my friend.. I enjoyed..  |
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Nan
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since 1999-05-20
Posts 21191Cape Cod Massachusetts USA |
LOL - I think I'll take off my disguise now - it isn't a very good one anyway...  |
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Kit McCallum
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since 2000-04-30
Posts 14774Ontario, Canada |
MissGypsiNess, Nan: Thanks so much for enjoying ... each day does add up indeed, very beautifully stated. Hugs to you my friend. Much appreciation, /Kit |
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