I called you up tonight
With hope and love in my heart
Hoping that we could find someway
To make a clean and brand new start

You answered the phone with "hello"
We greeted each other as we always do
Exchanging how our days went
Expressing our "I love you's"

Then I held my breath
As I asked the question are we okay?
There was a long moment of silence
And this is what I heard you say

I'm postponing my trip to see you
We need a break from each other
I need to work on myself
Myself, I have to redefine and rediscover

I'm not abandoning you
I just need to go away for a while
In a instant I wished
Your number I had not dialed

The pain is hot and searing
It's tearing a gaping hole in my soul
You completed me with your love
Now I feel empty and incomplete, no longer whole

The tears rained down my face
As you tried to explain it all to me
You say you're doing this for the both of us
But it's more for yourself in reality

Anger is now setting in
How could you do something like this?
You took a torpedo to what we share
Never again will I feel such bliss

How do I do this
You're asking me to let you go?
My heart is shattering into a million pieces
Now that we've come to the end of the "show"

It was a good run while it lasted
Dearest friend of mine
I'll just dissapear quietly
Allowing my heartache to fade with time

You told me my words are too grand
To please watch what I say
Suppose it doesn't matter how much I love you
Since you've decided that it's best this way

Tonight, you took your love away
I don't feel I'll ever be the same
Even though you say that it wasn't
This has the makings of what looks like a game

Don't worry about me though
I'll be alright once I've cried out the blue in my eyes
There is no reason for you to act sad now
You are the one that said "goodbye"

But wait you say it's not goodbye forever
Well, you can't have your cake and eat it too
So please if you are going to go, just go
Stop saying "I love you"

You're tearing at my heart
I need time to heal
You're the one that dealt and stacked these cards
Every protective layer around my heart, you peeled

Oh but how I love you
More than I ever had a right to
But now our love is ending
I'll just fade into the distance, and away from you

Amy M. Kennedy
Aug 5 2001

"Love is like a butterfly...the more you
chase it, the more it alludes you"
"Don't make promises you can't keep,
don't pull at my heart like you do...
though I have no right, I still love you"
~AMK~

[This message has been edited by Aimster (edited 08-05-2001).]