I loved you a lot
Too much to even say.
But it was just a one-way street
You ended it in a note sent to me.

I still loved you
Even though you moved away
You told me you'd come and vist me
But I knew you wouldn't keep the promise true.

When you were away I moved on
I found someone to love
To care about and to hold
I loved him a lot.

You came back to live,
Called me up and even came to see me
I wasn't over you
But, I figured I wasn't going to see you
So i put you to the side
And kept in my mind that I still loved him.

I can't lie any more
Lying to you, him
Lying to myself.
I love you
I don't love him.

I'm with him cuz I know I can't have you
I hide my feelings
I try to be strong

I won't hurt him, like you did me
But I still have to face the fact that I'm still in love with you
And
I'm trying to stay in love with him.


Ok this was about pretty much they guy I always wrote about on here... He was my first love..   but I'm having a very big problem about forgetting about him... or at least staying away from him. But I had to write this, and i'm not sure If i should give it to him, so he can face the fact that I was in love with him.... Should I?
   Always
    Amanda