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never_a_princess
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0 posted 2001-10-17 08:28 PM


It's a choice, not a child.
Why should anyone care?

Whether I go through with this
Or fix it my own way,
It's only some cells-
They mean nothing to me.

It's not like I mean it;
I don't want this position.
That's why I must do this;
It's my final decision.

What do I care about the after effects?
These so-called "risks" and "cautions"
They aren't true;
They can't happen-not to me anyway.
What I'm doing is right,
At least for today.

But what happens now that I hear no cry?
No humming, no laughing, just silence.
Silence.
It's too much to bear.
I can't think; I can't see.
Where has my life gone?

Speaking of going, where is that man?
The one who would be there forever;
The one who would hold me up & keep me from falling.
Falling.
It's too much to bear.
That man is gone; they're all gone-I'm all alone.
Alone.
It's too much to bear.
What I did was wrong; wrong forever.
Forever.

I see now what happens when I hear no cry,
No humming, no laughing, just silence.
Silence.

What they say about "risks,"
It's most definitely true.
There's no turning back, no second chances.

What do I care about the after-effects?
I care the world about the after-effects.
I wish I could change it-
Could turn back time.
I can't handle the pain.

But I made the choice-the final decision.
Oh, God, why must I be in this position?
It's not like I meant to; it was the only way.
Oh, God, now I see what You were trying to say.
You tried to tell me to stop; to listen.

But I didn't listen for "I had no time."
I chose to fix it my own way,
But fix it I didn't.
Now all I feel is the remorse,
The pain,
The anguish.

I can't take this much longer,
I live in guilt and in loss,
In regret and dismay.

I feel so useless, like some kind of zombie,
Just walking around.
No purpose, no meaning,
Just walking around.

But why should anyone care? Because, I tell you, I know the remorse,
The pain,
The anguish.
And I know it all too well.

If only I'd have known that day,
That day I changed two lives forever,
That day I killed two souls.

They were only some cells,
But they were living cells,
And they meant everything to me.

If only I'd have known,
She was a child, not a choice.

Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.

© Copyright 2001 Anna - All Rights Reserved
BlackDove
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1 posted 2001-10-17 08:38 PM


Didn't know you wrote this good!!  *cowers into the darkness in fear of defeat* :P
I Love the emotion and the realization you put in this Anna!! Rock on.  

All the plastic people who live without a care.Try to sit around my table and never bring a chair...

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2 posted 2001-10-17 10:12 PM


tell Me about it LOVED the emotions all of it! i can relate...powerful words yet absorbed in a hearfelt write, Anna? anna!...i REALLY liked this one.

=)

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3 posted 2001-10-18 10:25 AM


AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im absolutely 100% speechless!!!! omg wow!

ShE'S nOt ThE kInDa GiRL..WhO lIkeS tO tElL tHe WorLd AbOuT tHe Way She FEEL'S aBouT hErSelf...ShE tAkEs a LiTtLe TiMe In MakIn uP hEr MiNd..

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