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lilibeelee
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0 posted 2001-08-13 03:58 PM


Striving to be someone that I'm not
I said no more, atleast that's what I thought

I'm doing this once more
Becoming that someone, I was before

Stoped eating for a while,stoped thinking about me
You say,"your skiny!!" why dont you just see???

I look in my reflection in the mirror
My life is emptiy,in my soul it's bare

Not skiny enough, so I stop dont eat
This is a struggle I cannot beat

My self image,is nothing, nothing there
I look at my self,I continue to stare

droped almost 10 pounds,its still not enough
Im going down that road again,its all so rough

Emptiy is my stomach,emptiy it will remain
So much hurt is there,along with the pain

Why am I doing this,1 question is why?
I feel like iam waving my life goodbye

Noone understands nore can they comprehend
When will this insanity begin to end?

it would help to have a friend,just one is all I ask
Instead of all the fake ones, who hold a mask

It would be nice to fix everything
But then you relize, your living in a dream

you tell me, "you look sick is anything wrong?"
I smile and say,"No iam okay! just fine!"
The truth is I'm not, I feel like I just dont belong

Perfection is what I strive for but it cant be done
If feel like Im alone,Im the only one

Not happy with myself, not happy with me
you dont care, you live your life, and turn your face to reality



© Copyright 2001 Lisa - All Rights Reserved
lilibeelee
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1 posted 2001-08-13 04:01 PM


P.s.
Sorry for the spelling errors...Iam not that good at punctuation,...Im not perfect!!  

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2 posted 2001-08-13 06:52 PM


i like the piece!
but if this is really you, you do need some help...*hugz*

"I have no never-again, I have no always"
Pablo Nerudo

keoni
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3 posted 2001-08-14 02:18 PM


I like this poem. I hope you can figure things out because that is very dangerous to do to yourself. To hell with fitting in if that's what it takes.Good luck
Jon

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"Only God can judge me" Tupac Shakur

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4 posted 2001-08-14 04:46 PM


Wow.. there is a lot of emotion packed into this.  I'm sorry you're going through this.  You don't deserve it *hug*
As for the spelling errors... there's an edit button right above your text that you can go back and edit errors like that if you like  
As for the situation... *hug* Stay strong.

--Marie

You think yourself a failure, but perhaps the biggest loss is winning.

zarina
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5 posted 2001-08-14 05:10 PM


I really liked this. It's nice. The spelling errors are not that bad (you should see mine..) Keep writing! And I hope you'll be okay.

I am always myself. Isn't that enough for you?

Spice
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6 posted 2001-08-15 06:22 PM


Very few spelling errors- that I saw atleast.
A horrible situation you are describing though. E-mail me if ya wanna talk. I'm always happy to give advice. HaHa. But seriously, You should talk to someone ( that is , if it's about you.) Not eating is horrible. ( I don't see how people do that...food is my friend. LOL) *Hugs* Stay strong, deary. Best wishes to ya. You did very well here. I enjoyed it.  

You wouldn't worry about what people thought about you if you knew how seldom they did.

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7 posted 2001-08-26 08:25 PM


I enjoyed this one. Quite the emotional piece here. I liked it and hope things do get better for you.  

I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust.

Somewhere out there a cow is laughing at you

Kaos
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8 posted 2001-08-27 01:42 AM


i understand the whole ' being something you're not' deal.  i've done it...and beat it.  It's ok to be what you are cuz when you're you then you'll make friends that'll stick by you...it's when you're something you're not that your 'friends' wear masks.
Niccolo Machiavelli said, " I'd rather be hated for what i am, then be loved for something i'm not"

sorry...didn't mean to preach...but it's a bad personality trait...   i get it from my dad...he does that whole preaching thing a lot...guess it's rubbin off...well written poem tho, very deep meaning.  Email me ur sumthin if u need to talk(if the poem's about you)

" How can i feel if i can't breathe...?"
- Godsmack

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9 posted 2001-09-25 07:55 PM


You summed up about 1000 emotions into one poem
Hope things do go well for you
You have to realize that you health should come first
Thanks for sharing, keep it up

hi Sweets, Lizzy, Jesa, Ina, Allysa, Marie, Erica, Minna, Kit, Kamie, Javi, Jenn, Sharon, Nan, Cawlee, Cherish, Chelsea, Baker, Leah, Jess, Kimmie

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10 posted 2001-09-27 01:36 PM


Lisa, the first step is admitting that there is something wrong. You have done that. Now what you need to do is find the courage to seek that help. Every human being is beautiful no matter what they look like. I'm sure you're a beautiful person with gorgeous features. Keep positive, stay strong and find people that will help. If you need to talk, my email is: shadowchaser46@hotmail.com

As for your piece, it's very emotional and I could really feel what you're going through.

take care.

~AF~

"Reality is only a feeble rendering of the energy brought forth by the imagination"

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11 posted 2001-09-28 12:15 PM


WE ALL LOVE YOU!!!!! WHO CARES ABOUT THE LOOSERS AT SCHOOL? You can have us! Then you can eat all the chocolate you want!
NathanS
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12 posted 2001-09-28 12:58 PM


Great poem, since im knew here i don't really know what other things you've done. But i think its exceletly written.

When it comes to fitting in, the best meathod is to not care. Act yourself entirely- sure you might scare some people, and people might say your odd, but isn't that better then carrying such a facade?

It is much better to live in a word of reality as yourself, then to live in a world of disbliefe as someone else.

Great poem, keep up the good writings  
Your not the only person who goes through the things, we all do, perhaps in different ways, but im sure people can realte.

            -Nathan

TrueLUV
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13 posted 2001-09-28 12:58 PM


The piece is wonderful yet i wonder why if it is you who your talking about it is doing this to yourself. It will only bring you more pain take and advice be happy with yourself if your not first of all then nobody else will. Also think of what it might do to you and your family in the long run just sit down a minute think of what harm might come WE LUV U
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14 posted 2001-09-28 11:05 AM


this makes me cry. so beautiful!! great job... i'm sure most of us can relate to this... i know i can

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Don't just trust yourself,
learn what parts of yourself to trust.

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15 posted 2001-09-28 11:32 AM


I've faced this same struggle before..its rough and hard and you definately need some help coping w/this b/c as you know its much to difficult to do on your own. ::hugs::

It was a beautiful piece..extremely touching!

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