What Makes You Think You Won't Miss Me?

As I walk through the darkest forest of my mind,
I search for those lost, the friends I once loved.
Only shadows of dark laughter ricochet off the trees.
I must become one with the moon, stars, and the darkness.

I search of answers to this constant sorrow.
Dependable, old friends lie in these shadows.
Loneliness, darkness, fear, and mistrust,
Please hold me close and feel my pain.
Yet, another treacherous trick played on my mind,
Leaves me alone again in an abyss of sorrow?

Such cruelty, in spoken words spewn from an acid tongue,
Inflicting pain on delicate and fragile emotions.
Flowing now is a river of hurt and tears,
A merciless mix of emotions, too confusing to feel.
Trust now drains away like yesterday’s summer rain.

So lucid, transparent, will I ever trust again?
I think not this time! Behind these walls I stay safe.
The clock ticks, and my empty heart loses another precious moment.
Frozen in fear, I stay within these walls of darkness.

Was it all an illusion, a dream, that I let you in?
I exposed myself, and gingerly came out to embrace you,
One step at a time forming a bond of trust.
Did you not mean it was to be forever?
Maybe I am the one who walks in the light after all.
I would have been your shadow forever.

You threw my heart and trust away like yesterday’s news.
Crossing boundaries never again to grace your footsteps.
Now I am broken, like a puzzle never to be finished,
Stashed on mind’s shelf like a pile of shattered glass,
But if touched, surly I will cut my heart to the quick.

You are now, erased from my heart and soul,
Like an equation that will remain unanswered.
Still somehow I know the answer.  
I thought I saw inside your soul and heart,
Now you are but a distant fog and lifting from my soul.

As I sit here in solitude, I have to wonder,
What makes a heart so cold to hurt another’s,
Or feel power from crushing another’s soul?
Yes, you truly hurt me, but even more you hurt hurt yourself.
What makes you think you won’t miss me?

Art: William Whitaker "Huipil"
Music: Elan Michaels "Child Within"

~*~ Remember to tell someone today that you love them as tomorrow may never come ~*~

I am so sorry you trusted someone and they let you down. It's awful to have bonded with someone, to find it must not have meant anything or it wasn't real. Especially, when all along, you thought it was. I know you don't know me from Adam (remember telling me that?) but forever is something I value and eternity is the length of time I will stand behind someone. I hope you know that you have touched the hearts of many, and in this short time of knowing you, I found that out quickly. So, dry your sweet eyes and know that without you in anothers life is certainly a loss of their own...I'm just sorry you had to hurt also. You are very special and don't forget that.  

Sauni

Sauni :)
Have you ever known the color grey when the nighttime finds you weak
I have, I've walked that road each time; that's where my angel sleeps

~*~ Remember to tell someone today that you love them as tomorrow may never come ~*~

~*~ Remember to tell someone today that you love them as tomorrow may never come ~*~

be well and hugs to you.....
Lauren~


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Nothing Beautiful In This World
Is Ever Really Lost
All Things Beloved
Live on In Our Hearts...Forever."

Mysteria~
You already know my feelings on the loyalty of friendship ...

One thing I've always known ...
I don't let one betrayal deprive me of all the friends
I might make tomorrow.

Keep your heart open and reach out to another who might be reeling from the betrayal of friendship.

We can't measure future friends by bad experiences yardstick ...
or we are the ones who will come up short.

Love n' hugs and all that jazz !
~*Marge*~

~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~
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