Bringing a life into this world
Was meant to bring such joy
The months before the birth we'd say
"Would it be a girl or maybe a boy?"

How excited we all were
When this bundle, she was born
How was I to know how much my life would soon be torn?
Why wasn't I so happy?
So much joy eluded me
I'd resigned myself to thinking
This was how it was meant to be

So much sorrow, pain and guilt
I was feeling every day
As I curled up like a foetus
And I forced myself to pray

She was such a perfect baby
So very precious in every way
So why was it that I was feeling
"I can't face another day"?

Was I such a failure?
Unable to be a good mother to my child
I knew I just couldn't do it
My mind was running wild

I hid my fears from everyone
No one knew quite what to say
I finally sought the help I'd need
To help me face another day

How fragile life can be
How much pressure is put on you
How fortunate was I - surrounded by love
Which helped to see me through

An illness that so many shun
As they just don't understand why
A brand new mum with a beautiful child
Just sits all day and cries?

She should think herself so lucky
So many just don't get the chance
To have a child like she did
"Shake her out of her silly trance!"

The day that I sought help
And realised that I couldn't do this on my own
Was the day I began to claw my way
Back to the life that I had known

I crawled my way out of that very dark and empty hole
So alone I felt down in there
Had I completely lost my soul?

With so many worried faces all around me
I didn't know how much they cared
My illness was just crippling me
It was something that couldn't be shared

I sought some reassurance
Was I really doing alright?
I tried my hardest and finally broke through
With a tremendous amount of might

Now eight year on, I look lovingly at her
So beautiful, tall and bright
And feel so blessed I made it through
And I know that I won the fight

How sad am I on hearing
Of others suffering a similar fate
And plead with those who'll listen
"Get help, before it's too late!!"

Don't let others cloud your view
You know the best - what's right for you
Be yourself - don't be ashamed to cry
With lots of love, you'll surely get by