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Temptress
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0 posted 2001-04-04 05:17 PM


They say to work it out and if I really wanted it,
It would happen because I'd make it
Force it, coax it, stomp on its heat until it surrendered,
I just don't share it
That view that things work out one sided
If the one just sweats and cries a little more.
I just don't believe it
And maybe I'm less of a person for it
Or just not strong enough to hold up my end of the bargain anymore
Often lately been on the edge of out the door
No forwarding address take only what I need
So what is it that I want or feel I need
Been asked that, been quizzed into the darktime hours
Until sleep deprivation and emotion
Received the best of two very good friends.
Must I know at this age what I need?
When there are others out there older
Who still don't know it yet?
And how long do we have to seek ourselves out?
Before we believe in love again?
Never thought I'd be here
In this oblivion of doubt and beginnings of giving up,
But here I am because after being so long lonely with my lack of tears,
And now they flow, but I'm answering questions,
I don't have the courage to tell even my closest friends right now,
And they don't have to know, do they?
Shouldn't they just be there standing by?
A good friend once said not to feel obligated
To here pour out my soul,
But it is in this I find my solace,
Because there is no physical place in the world these days,
Offering up such a service
The service of really wanting to hear or hold me.
And I've lost the way home
Calling the other day, the voice on the other end was unfamiliar,
And unnaccepting to this forlorn fashion of a girl,
Trying to be a woman while being pressed down again.
Squirming under stunted growth and wasted time.

still d-i-s-c-o-n-n-e-c-t-e-d
I am bound by this, you see...to become Night's sole mistress, and I am jealous in my endeavours for his attention.

© Copyright 2001 Jennifer - All Rights Reserved
Irish Rose
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1 posted 2001-04-04 05:21 PM


lots of deep thought in this one, I won't try to figure it out,
just enjoyed it, someone vented in this right?  Jenn you
are amazing....

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2 posted 2001-04-04 05:24 PM


You go, girl.

Live for love. Without love, you don't live.


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3 posted 2001-04-04 05:34 PM


lost the way home? Temptress, I think you're finding the way home......may the coarse be with you!
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4 posted 2001-04-04 07:21 PM


excellent writing. . .

really gets into the heart of it all. . .

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To the world, you may only be one person. But to one person, you may be the world.

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