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D edgar Grey Member
since 2002-08-21
Posts 174Hell...(aka Wisconsin) |
It¡¦s in the greatest darkness That I find the brightest light It¡¦s in the simplest moments of peace That I¡¦m most willing to fight It¡¦s in the darkest shade of black That I am surrounded by pure white It¡¦s in the frozen seconds of life That searing flames obscure my sight It¡¦s in the most tranquil silence That sounds bursts forth in cries It¡¦s in the sweetest moments of truth That spawn the cruellest lies It¡¦s in my ever-steady lungs That I feel without breath And it¡¦s in my most joyful times That I can¡¦t help but crave death ---------------------------------------------------- No, I'm not suicidal anymore. But in this sense, it is true that I often wonder about how, when, where, etc. I'm going to die...usually these thoughts grip me when I'm most happy. Weird, isn't it? |
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Scarlet Lady Member
since 2000-02-11
Posts 242Midwest |
"No, I'm not suicidal anymore. But in this sense, it is true that I often wonder about how, when, where, etc. I'm going to die...usually these thoughts grip me when I'm most happy. Weird, isn't it?" So what changed for you? And why do you still think about it?(suicide that is) Listen....everyone is going to die, but to dwell on it is to "exist" only. I have found that pain is meant to help you grow. I have looked at it a different way & perspective, you have to grow more than the usual person, because you have to "GIVE" more. Sounds obsurd right? Really from what you write, I sense the kind of person that wants to give, but feels unaccepted??? No need for anyone to feel that way, your writing is explanatory. All want to give. I received from your poetry! Thank you! It¡¦s in the sweetest moments of truth That spawn the cruellest lies...... That is why truth is so dangerous my friend! Wonderful insight into your soul. Wonderful hurt from the truth. |
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bsquirrel
since 2000-01-03
Posts 7855 |
D., I like your rage against the dying of the light here. The light dying is one thing. You dying? Quite another. Suicide leaves you in a rut permanently. There are no take-backs, no chances, and no choices. So live. Mike |
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D edgar Grey Member
since 2002-08-21
Posts 174Hell...(aka Wisconsin) |
That was rather blunt, but I appreciate the message. Umm...I do understand that it is important to suffer in order to continue to develop and grow as a human, but sometimes it just seems like so much! Whenever I'm really stressed I try and remind myself about that, but it doesn't always work. Thank you for your kind comments, though. The reason why I use to contemplate suicide is a long story, so I won't go into it. It's in the past...where it should be! But the reason why I still think about suicide today is mainly because-at least to my understanding- is because it's human to consider these sorts of actions. I certainly wouldn't take my life now, but I often wonder if there is anything that would make me consider it again. Usually the answer is a huge "NO!" Most of the time, however, I dont' think about suicide but rather death (when, where, why, how, who, etc.). To be more precise, MY death. But you're right: don't dwell on it. Pain is for growing. Move on and enjoy life to its fullest, even in the worst of times. Thank you so much. |
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